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Hehe, not to forget I spent my Thursday with boyfriend :)  I guess tuesday isn't a gf day anymore hahaha, but it doesn't matter cause everyday can be gf day :)  We had hotpot for dinner :D  Nic told me that he was an assistant manager on the bus and I laughed at him. I think this shop is really special because I'm an assistant manager now :P  Congrats on your promotion hehehe.  This was our soup, and it became liquid after 5 minutes :))  Us with all the ingredients which was presented in a special way.  And not forgetting their super cute dessert :))  I guess I'll patronize them soon again hehe.  Goodnight! :) 

hi gillian! :) I just saw your post. I hope that you will pass through the interview and get the joy of being a teacher :) It will definitely be a fun and enriching journey for you :) Meanwhile, study hard for A levels ok! It will be another 2 more days to the start, but freak not because you will be able to do it! :) Same goes to the rest, jiayou! :) hehehe week 2 of school had passed. wow. Is it me? Or the time pass really fast? It was a good week i would say..? Since assignment stress haven't got in more than 50% into me, but i was sick :( boo that sucks, but then i would say I had sufficient rest these few days :) School has been really good with sluts around :D And to end our Friday off, my nicest (bad) friend and I went to SP for llao llao even though I was still sick. It was quite disappointing but craving satisfied yay!  Small cup for me :D  HHEHE and she posted my picture yay! :D  Goodnight :) 

"Good morning ms huiwen" "Ms Huiwen come back already" "Ms huiwen cut hair" Hehee these were the things my children said when I entered the child care yesterday :)  Honestly I was tired and drained, not really looking forward to attachment. However, because of what they said, it made my morning and I was super happy for the day :D  It's surprising how the children can remember me, even after I cut my hair. And they said they prefer me to have long hair because "can tie pony tie then can swing my hair" :')  These children are really cute <3 one of the reason why I don't regret this field :) 

心理作怪

First week of school is over :D  And guess what made us happy on a Friday! :)  WOOHOO COFFEE BEAN HEHE.  Small things that make us both happy :)  First week of school hasn't been too bad, but each lecturer came in telling us the amount of work we have for this semester, which is kind of scary. Shall not complain or anything because we still have to finish them in the end. So I shall embrace it with a smile? Hahahaha.  This week has been full of ups and downs. I'm scared.  是不是被撕过的纸永远粘不回？ 就算粘回了，也回不到从前？ 那也是不是没有不会改变的事？ 还是我想太多了？ 累，乱。 

First day of school was filled with excitement and tiredness.  I've been resting at home for too much and too long, and I realised that going out to meet people and keep myself busy is the best way to lead my life :) though a little rest is never too much for me :)  This semester seems like a whole load of work to do, like 3 or 4 times more workload than the previous one. :/ but I will conquer them :)  Lesson from 9-6 is really super tiring plus brain dead. Hahahaha but glad that it's over :D 

So the next day after camp, I went out with this girl.  Kbox and our favorite llao llao :D I think I had llao llao with her for about 3 or 4 times this holiday but it's still so good every time we have it :)  Haven't seen her for a few weeks, and she's my happy pill. :)) I am happy when I go out with her cause we can eat many many food, talk about many many things Hehehehe.  Thanks girl, I love you :)  And as usual, we took a lot of photo. Hehe to get good lighting, go into a neoprint booth hehe. (She taught me that) 

Wanted to post this since Saturday but it's already thursday. Camp was really fun I think. Like I love the games and all, but because I didn't do much in the planning, I think credits go more to those that did.  Thanks for coming up with games that's so interesting and unique. And the boys for moving the logistics in the rain. It was really nice to interact with yall more during the camp :) hehe.  To my SM, thanks for being so cooperative and didn't give us much troubles :) really love you people hehe and hope yall had enough of my cold jokes heheeheh.  Other than the camp activities, this camp made me realise that how different everyone was. And that everyone's opinion really differ. Knowing the different ways to interact with people is important.  Lastly, it was a good charge for me. 5 days away from everything except cca, was good and I guess I needed those peace. 

This is getting bad. I think I'm getting more short-tempered recently. (although I am still quite patient) I need to tell myself to not show my anger to others even though they are the one at fault. This is getting so bad and annoying. :/ I really need more things to distract me. Once I'm too focus on something, I get really pissed when it is not what I expected. And, camp in 3 days. 5 days away from home, bye bye hehehe.

I must constantly remind myself that a leopard can't change its spots.  Always giving in and believing that one will not change is doing harm to myself.  Caring too much will end up upsetting myself more.  Being too nice is being cruel to myself.  Yes, I must not forget these.

I've been giving in too much.  Feedin you with everything you want me to do.  You're getting greedy and not know how to appreciate what you have.  It's time to stop.  To stop defending you.  To stop trying to please you.  To stop all your nonsense.  To stop you from screwing my life up.  Because you don't deserve them. 

向着未来 往前冲  把不必要的东西放下 努力往目标前进 失败乃成功之母 一分耕耘一分收获 不要怀有恶毒的念头 错了就认错 知错能改善莫大焉 原谅别人的过错 把珍惜你的人留下 那些不珍惜你的人也就别留了 慧雯 加油！

I wonder too.  I guess it's mine.  And probably you haven't realise it. 

I just went to some blogs (my usual routine).  It was pretty sad to look at how down everyone was. I know I am not there to feel what is the stress but I hope the best for each and every one of you.  Don't give up, it's the last lap alright? Work super hard for these two months and you will get to rest and play your hearts out.  JC PEOPLE, JIAYOU!  爱你们  And must be happy, cause I love you hehehe.