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today was a good day((: at least ms heng lesson was alright and everyone manage to keep it quiet. 最后的一堂课。hmm, i think we going to miss mr leee. at least he taught us for 2 years. umm recess we was talking to him and morning got interview with him((: applied science(: i was studying ((: i think i should start mugging hard. at least if i work hard, then i wont be nervous like ytd. mug mug mug.but kind of late)): but late better than never right((: peijun is scary!! she always call me lao mu ji when she is a lao ah ma! 654556489(written by peijun, she tooooo bored.) hahahs son is nice (:

today was especially good day and especially bad day too. okay mixed feelings:D at first was oral> and sly came to buy drink and pei me :D:D hahas he's nice and he became my son> went home with sly, yk, shihui, gillian and chess. yk went first since chess was not there. HAHAS it was funnn! (((: ohtwo became more bonded, i guess:D but it may be a bad thing> tmr last day of proper lesson > hahas today im very happy! i got 2 new son:D

i've picked myself up(: and yea.. i will try to study smart! but then still lazy to study. LOLS. today lesson was interesting, but then i think tmr is going to be a badly scolding day): chessneth damn LOL! he wanted to take 74 to run away from me and gillian, and in the end, we took the same 88 (:

这几天的心情好像坐roller coaster那样，上下上下。我好怕！我不想坐也不敢。 好希望上天能让我掌控一切，我一定会让大家的生活好好过，不会让他们伤心。看到他们个个这样，我的心情也好受影响，再加上昨天所收到的简讯，会让我不知不觉的伤心。 我告诉自己，这不是伤心的时候，这该是读书期间，不该想太多东西，当我的书都读不进，怎么办呢？我不想让关心我的人伤心。

i hope u are alright thanks for the comfort ytd(:

it doesnt hurt like raindrops. it just hurt like needle drop

its like 12.47 pm(: HAHAS what an awesome time and i havent sleep yet. in fact, i just hope not to sleep, in case someone ring me up. i hope that everything will be alright yeaa:D i believe and it definately will be! :D as for grandpa, i will pray for you every night, though i didnt really communicate much with you this few years, but we are tied by blood yea.. get well soon(: hmmm. i kind of look back to 3 weeks ago. but thankfully, i wont cry, if not my eyes would be like a goldfish eyes. hmm, what u told me ytd really hurts me, but u didnt know that actually hurts me, so just be it. let things go your way then. i got mixed feeling for this post. OH GOSH! midnight has pass which means, another day nearer to exams! oh great. like shit. i had the whole day today to study and yet, i only did diffusion, osmosis and active transport. what a good time that i wasted. huiwen, continue like this and your results willl prove everything kay! im just worried for people, and yea.. people that i c...

AHAHAHAHAHAHAH! AHAHAHAHAH! HAHAHAHA! OKAY SHHHH, SECRET BETWEEN PEIJUN AND ME! HAHAHS PEIJUN HAS SUCCESSFULLY SPAM MY TWITTER AND ALL WHEN I WAS SLEEPING!

oh great! i woke up at 8 to study ((: and i finish almost all the sec 1 chem, except of particular model of matter (or did i get it wrong. ooops! ) im kind of tired. o.O want go sleeep again :D hope peijun can study with me todayyyy!(: 我的难过是如此低调， 因为不想打扰，我在寂寞的墙角， 努力的对自己好，你用微笑回报 朋友或情人不重要， OMG 低调 is nice! (Y)

I always think abt things further ahead, to plan for my future, or to rewind the past as memories are just too hard to be forgotten. Times with Ls, times with vballer etc.. I can't forget them. Its so awesome, plus fabulous. Sometimes when u look back, u are going to miss all the good times, and laugh at the bad times. When I was young, I always wanted to be an adult, But as time pass by, I love to be young, where everyone will be so innocent and all. Tonight.. I look back, and I realise that actually everything was very nice. But there's always an end. An end to pri sch life, end of 202 and etc.. I regretted, I guess. But sometimes I didn't regret, for when if I didn't make that decision, I won't be like now. Life was great last time, But god make my life worst, for me to see better things, I told myself. I can't help but just to look back. Maybe I should look forward instead of missing the past. Since our eyes is at the front instead of the back. I have awesom...

woooot~ its raining! XD i think it hasnt rain for longgggg.. but nice weather to sleep(: so after my post im gonna sleep like a pig(: which i always does:D physics ): die flat on the ground! gee gee gee gee baby baby baby. finally handed up all the D&T! (: other classes de vry nice!:D 10 more days to EOYs! OH MEEE GODDD! i haven finish quite alot of revision. and worst come to the worst is that not any science is done ! GG-fied. hmm.. misunderstanding seriously bad but it makes us more bonded! ((: after listening to what gillian say today.. im going to misss OHTWO like seriously. oh damn god. i dun wan us to partttt))):

WEEEHEEE!(: today was a fun day((: HEHEHE(: omgomgomg!

some dick and pussy presentation from kris group tdy. LOLS im seriously not in the mood to study today!): awww.. huiwen is like soooo... idk what to say. LOLS thanks jem so so so much! i FOUND MY MATH TEXTBOOK!((: AHAHAHAHAHS!:D my post is so boring today): awww. so sad. huiwen is sad):

school was awesome today O.o my phone was about to be confiscated by mr lee): all thanks to sis man. but it was wrong of me tooo. i swear this time was sis who sms me(: D&T sucks TTM! im tired and pissed and annoyed by it! GRRR! im like supposed to study at 6 and look at the time! ITS 7.14PM. oh great huiwen. LOLS stress. im stress. but im going to go crazy to de-stress. forgive me people:D

i just hope everything will be fine. take care and please please please dun let the war start ):

past few days had been busy.. lets recall what i did:D thur went to universal studio, and now i miss that place! friday.. didnt really do much things, just that champs day! XD sat went to trng, zhiyu house to prepare ferlicia's birthday and pri sch. gosh gosh. times running out. not that i wan to stress u guys. but EOY is just 15 DAYS!! better start revising! i just realise i havent do much things> hmmm.. i havent talked to you for days.. mayb i miss u.. but then ya.. this might be better. like who knows, huiwen miss YOG, miss universal studio and miss pri sch life! goshh. good night (which is afternoon) peeps.:D

OMG A WEEK HAS PAST AGAIN?! time seriously flies! champion day today! kind of bored but then can joke ard with vballers((: went universal studio ytd!(: its damn nice! but i scare of height): hahas but nice place(: im worried for exams):

woo~ a circular rainbow!:D its nice! but then my eyes hurts now all thanks to looking at the bright sun. but then yea.. hope this is not a bad sign yea.. tonight going to universal studio!:D hehe(: IT test later. im scared): lit test tooo): hope its okay:D

WOO~ D&T is kind of fun O.o i cant believe that im actually saying this now. like duh.. who likes D&T? lesson is kind of sleepy recently. plus looking at him sleeping tempts me more! grr. call him wake up, he smile then off to his dreamland again-.- h2h was awesome today! weee going universal studio tmr(: and yea.. champs day on friday!((: and sorry to u, wo bu xiang de.

history was kind of... no words to describe. went out to the class and slack((: guys went play bball. and gosh.. my art): 50+ only-.- stomachache)): duno why this few days always like that. think im going sick soon): for once i think D&T is awesome(: i came up with my final ideas(: trng was awesome! i love-d! (: im happy today. just worried for someone):

currently at computer lab((: gahhh. this thursday is the IT test. OMG im so dead. i didnt even listen in this class> 我心里好乱。为什么事情会这样么？i just hope everything is okay soon bah. kind of sad to hear that ): hmmm. coming to school is nice though with frens and all(:

遇见 听见 冬天的的离开 我在某年某月 醒过来 我想 我等 我期待 未来却不能因此安排 阴天 傍晚 车窗外 未来有一个人在等待 向左向右向前看 爱要拐几个弯才来 我遇见谁 会有怎样的对白 我等的人 他在多远的未来 我听见风来自地铁和人海 我排着队 飞过一片时间的海 我们也曾在爱情里受伤害 我看着路 梦的入口有点窄 我遇见你是最美丽的意外 总有一天 我的谜底会揭开 HAHAS this song is very old song but it make me addict to it now((: hear it toooo! (: awww.. school start tomorrow. GOSH! i still got some homework havent finish but who cares(: monday is an awesome and fabulous day since there is not much of a lesson:D hmmm.. how many more days to EOYs? O.o i lose count but forget it. who cares now((: hahas and and and school reopen! see the Ls! ((:

finally for once in this week.. IM HIGH WHEN I WAS TALKING TO PEIJUNNN! but ya.. it only lasted very shortly cause mum was home so soooooon): when she's at home , i cant talk on the phone so yea.. studying and computer!(: you know its kind of bored when she isnt working for 3 days..): but luckily sis is at home tmrrr! which means i can use her card sms!(: photoshoot on monday!(: YAY! hmmm. mum saw the call when i was talking to him>

gosh gosh gosh! school is starting in 3 days! and i got D&T , history, physic not done! OHMEEEGODDDDD! okay huiwen shall start to do homework today(: i havent enjoy much of the holidays. like duh.. who finds holidays long. gahh. i cant use sis card anymore): anyway sorry to those people that sms me when i didnt reply. i didnt use my card. anyway. yea. i should study hard instead of wasting all time when others are studying hard.

what a pleasant day today. where i spent all my time slacking and resting and enjoying myself(: i've decided that i need a rest and i will study at night(: morning was trng. then shabu-shi with sis! (: i think i eat it anymore. came home and watch tv(: plus lying on the bed and sms using sis sim card!(: im confuse-d. hmm. what should i do?o.O OMG panick! holidays is coming to an end and yet i've been slacking!>

LITERATURE LESSON (: time pass super fast. then lunch at coffee shop and went macs to study, i think im the only one who could focus but gillian later was doing her work too(: then went back school. wanted to do D&T but suddenly didnt had to mood anymore so skip it. im sorry. it hurt as much. ):

headacheeeee)): today was awesome with sis and laywen(: at least laywen taught me physics! unlike that stupid sister always duno how teach me(: breakfast with cat, then lesson with yongkang (: awesome! ms luo is nice(: things done this week: 1. monday -discuss history(but i haven do> -abit of physics(: maybe just 0.00001% of the mindmap-.-) 2. tues! -physic! -chi - pian duan suo xie OMG AT THIS RATE HOW AM I GOING TO FINISH ALL MY WORK!?!?! its okay.. see there's an improvement. tmr will better:D but im kind of busy.. D&T workshop at 1.30, eng lesson at 9. wooo~ im going finish chi cemetry and LA homework ltr(: hmm. maybe not much things to say. but sis is awesome! im been using her prepaid card recently:D and yeaa. JY for her tests!:D

currently at peijun house! im just afraid to be alone at home, maybe at here, peijun can accompany me! awesome! but i seems to be talking to shihui hahas. history in school was... ummm. kind of waste time, we should have discuss it on the phone. lols. hmmm, today was quite not bad, i guess. lols. at least i broke the record to talk.

i have decided not to think about it and yea.. focus on EOYs. i must get into the combination that i want! chemistry, physics, double math, pure geog, elective history. english, HMT. i WILL and i CAN! good luck to you and peeps! thanks for all the comforting and im feeling much better. maybe due to a good night sleep. lols. and dun worry for me.

im much much much better. seriously. thanks for ur ears. im grateful to u all and yea, thanks for talking to me on the phone.

i duno what can i do. ): sorry.

why did things become like this? i didnt expect this at this point of time. haizyyy. im kind of stuck but i'll made the right decision. holidays is here yea! (: trng was quite awesome today with ferlicia!(: weeeheeee(: )): i should study now. but kind of moodless. just feel like sleeping(:

last day of school(: YAY! but then i promise to study hard in this holiday(: i wont count down to exams, since its giving others and myself stress(: progess card. gosh. how's mum going to react? im dead. or willl she ask me to work hard? had a talk with her. can see that she wants to help me. im grateful to her, actually she isnt bad. but just fierce at times:D

maybe i shall just be honest on this blog post. but i wont answer any question ask-ed. or random, see and ignore it. unhappy or sad was never in my mind last time. but it seems like i found it in my brain recently. once unhappy caught me, it never leave my mind. i wish to go back to last time when i didnt know what does the word meant. but it seems hard. im trying. really trying hard. i dont know where the problem lies. but i feel sad when someone tell me there's something in my mind. im trying to find the root cause, maybe is just i dont want or dun wish to know. i hope EOY is just going to be over soon. but it seems long. somehow maybe studies might be the root cause. i've no confidence in studying anymore. my languages are failing or just pass. so what can i do? so what if i study? i cant do well still. my passion for learning is no longer there. im trying to get myself to study really hard. for this exams especially. i want to go into the class i really want.

PH today!(: HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY to all teacher! thanks for all the guidance!(: hope to study today but seems like im kind of distracted): but macs will be successful cause there's no laptop for me!(: i did finish the D&T drawing(: since i fail it, might as well i just redo(: since its like 33 more days, then i think i should start studying and get well for EOY rather than using the com. (: i've stop baking life(: hope ur throat is alright(: and once a month, i rmb(: hope that u wont ask me today again abt homework to be handed in tmr. and hope u got over it alr.study hard for EOY yea(: