im-perfection

Study session was quite okay today! :) I did something productive yay! :) but idk why I still like dont get the concept :/ practise practise practise ba. Trng tmr! Next week will be so drain. Physics, geog, chem spa, Amaths, chi and english test! Woah busy :/ and sis will be back next week! :D and that means I have only 2 weeks left to study ): ohnooooo. So glad that aunt is alright! :) it's just a blood cot and it's nothing serious :) but she's really brave! Something that I admire a lot! Gonna study goodbyeeee :)

Good things always come to an end. Everything has an ending. Its just a matter of when I guess. It depends on how a person fight for it. Random thoughts lol. I hope no one reads my blog but chance are high that no one reads it righttt since it was dead for quite some time. Childhood. The time I missed the most ): and it's gone. All left are just memories. How I miss being a child. Everything is just nicely done for u, everyone will be super nice to you and it wasn't so stress. Got back my prelim results yesterday and it sucks seriously. I never expect it to be this ): I hate how my results are now. I hate how everything is now. I hate how screwed up I am now. So demoralised yesterday. So much for having the motivation to study but gone after taking back results. Can't give up just like that! Jiayou baaaaa and I hope 你们会没事！

Exactly one more month to midyear! Should I be glad that there's still a month time or should I be worried that there's only one month time left? Think in the positive way ba. One month. I should make good use of it! I hope there will be improvement in mye results ba! Sis went back to Malaysia already! I miss her ): feel so weird to sleep alone! Haiy. Gonna call her everyday if I can hahaha :) Maybe some goal setting: - not to exceed my SMS! -pass physics and chem by mye -aim to sleep before 11 everyday -not to get addicted to any drama before mye end -STOP GETTING DISTRACTED BY MY PHONE! Jiayou baaaaaaa :) 你说呢 明知你不在 还是会问

Today ms wong said she's going to call those people who failed 3 or more subjects. And guess what I'm one of them too. Ever since she said that I've been thinking about it over and over again. I can't stop thinking. What will mum's reaction be like? I can't stop thinking about how disappointed she will feel. I hate that disappointed feeling. What will she say to me then? Idk. I remember this happened once last year, when I brought back all my results and it was really badly done. I remember how much tears I dropped then. I told myself I will work hard and pass all my subjects so mum won't be disappointed with me ever again but it happened again. Idk how am I going to face mum. I know she will ask me if I need tuition anot and ask me what really happen but idk how to explain even me myself idk what can I do to help myself. Have I not work hard enough? Idk. Maybe I really didn't. Or maybe I prioritise it wrongly. I shouldn't spend so much time on mat...

IT'S SUNDAY AGAIN! Well I don't know if this is good or bad. Bad cause school reopening tomorrow! :/ and I thought I finished all my homework alr and turns out that i have not finish any -.- maybe good is cause I can see everyone again! Hate staying home alone that sucks.

Went doctor again today cause having very serious stomachache, vomit and diarrhoea. Doctor say it was food poisoning but idk what I ate that led to the poisoning :/ what a bad start of march. First 3 days only then went doctor 2 times :/ felt quite bad to mum cause she spend like $90 for my doctor bill and spend time waiting with me for the doctor :/ Thank god its weekend then I don't have to take mc. Spend my time mostly on bed which is quite sian also! Hope I will be fine by tmr! Xinthesis today! All the best to the performers today though its kind of late alr. So I guess even if I bought the tix, I still won't be able to go. Hope everyone have fun there! ^^ Last week of school next week! :) is it bad or good? Idk. Maybe good cause get to have a march break or maybe it will be filled with remedial lessons or cca for everyone. I think mum and sis and dad planning to go back Malaysia so I will be aloneeeee but it's fine la. I don't want to be reason why they never g...

Hate being sick ): can feel the rain coming in haha! And that woke me up. Felt like I slept for hours but I only slept for less than an hour. Need to get well soon! Luckily mum not working today and tomorrow so she can take care of me! :) Jiayou to everyone for tmr's last paper! I can feel myself being quite hot now and I'm heating up my bed LOL nonsense. Went polyclinic and waited for 3 hours and my temp went from 37.7 to 38.3 and super cold there! Felt quite bad cause mum had to wait there together with me. Okay I better go rest now goodbye!