im-perfection

Steamboat with the girls was awesome today :) it has been a long time since we came tgt as a team, though there wasn't a full team today cause nao got chi o tmr ): super fullllll but then it was quite worth it :) card games and truth or dare was awesome :) hehe ^^ everyone laughed like mad today and saw the planning for camp alr :) Hahahaha anyway parents gonna be back tmr. Hmm at least dad is back :) I need to tell them the cockroach incident! Oh Physics paper tmrrrr. Oh welll. Idk lah don't think so much ba. Try my best. And 02 outing. Hmmm. Nvm no comments. Jiayou baaaa :) 真相会随着时间慢慢地出现.

Hmmm today was such a 'rainy' day. It pour in the morning and in the afternoon. I'm still thinking if I should drop to combined. I guess probably not ba. But what if I still continue to fail? My o will be super screwed and I'll regret not listening to sis. Haiy. Idk laaa. Ahh. See how on Monday ba. Hmm principal session. Wow. First time in my 10th year of education. It's not a good thing anyway. How it will be okay ba. Haiy. I must really study smart this time round. I can do it de. Hmm parents went KL alr and I'm all alone at home. Sometimes this alone is just too scary which I dislike. I'm scare. Jiayou ba.

Chi intensive for the past maybe two weeks :O actually not two weeks laaaa but it's more than a week so let's just round up :) hmmm lesson was pretty good honestly :) the teachers really spend a lot of effort teaching us :) thanks so much! :D And videos was shown. Hmm the first video was an hour and it made the girls cried > Chi o on Monday! Goodluck for those taking paper :) and probably I feel less guilty now! Hmmm idk and I'm not sure what thing is gonna strike us next >

Got back paper today and it was really disappointing. I did quite badly I guess :/ I'm gonna be the last few again > Emaths was okay ba. :) at least one subject that can pull me up!! And SS was quite okay ba, normally I'll be disappointed with the results but this time I was so glad that I pass!!! Lesson learnt is that to study two themes and not having too much confidence that a certain topic will come out. Tmr Amaths and geog. Hmmmm. Either one fail I guess me may not take it. Jiayou baaaa. Theres still time to work hard.

Hmmm. Got back Chinese paper today and intensive chi today. Lesson was super cold!! Luckily I brought my jacket along :) hmm mum ask me how did I do for chi. I just said if you see just the marks alone, ofc it's bad but if you compare with all the hmt students then I'm average. Well.. Mum didn't scold me after that. Was it cause she know I work hard? Or what..? Honestly sky kinda turn grey at that time when ms Wong say I'll be very disappointed with my maths. Haiy. Maths. The only subject that I look forward to. Don't tell me u gonna kill my only hope. Aviation. I seemed to be even further away from it now. Neither science or maths can make it. So am I still able to get into that course? I've been dropping. Ain't I? What's the problem with me? I still can't seems to find that problem that lies in me. Work harder they always say. Well I did work hard this time. But sometimes it's not just work hard can solve everything right? I don't have mu...

TODAY WAS FUN :D be it with 02 peeps or with Dexus people!! :D probably the best day since exams end! :) baking was fun toooooo!!! :))))) hahahahahahah. Results tmr. Hmmmm.

hmmmm end of MYE! :D but like kind of don't have the feeling that it ended :/ idk why is it so. i was so looking forward to end of MYE but well life now.. is so aimless :/ i still like the life when there's exam, at least there was an aim, there's always something i have to do everyday. hmm i must be crazy. captain ball today with the girls was awesome! :) i like how our class girls can just get together and have fun together though we normally don't spend much time together! everyone's nice anyway :) played for two hours and went to rest at the canteen then lunch and went charm's house! :D OMG HER HOUSE IS DAMN COOOOL! got the very very comfortable feeling~! :D and i like! :) wanted to went off at 3 to get something but well~ didnt :/ hmm shall get it on monday then! :D played monopoly deal and then chatted at her balcony :) it was so relaxing! :) a break from weeks of studying but i guess i wont stop studying luh. shall pack my cupboard and all my stuff tomor...

LAST PAPER TMR YAY OMG SUDDENLY FEEL SO FREEEEE :) everyday is so stresssssss. Come home eat sleep study sleep wake up take test go home eat sleep study. So boredddd. And 3 weeks just pass like that!! Almost really wanted to give up alr > Hmmm suddenly exam going to end then I don't feel like sleeping alr! :O hahahahaha. Haiyyyy but sleep feel so good during exam period Hahahaha :) kind of looking forward to result but im not sure if I can take some blows. Hmmm. Jiayouuuuu ba.

Argh so pissed with myself for not studying much :/ ))): what's wrong with me now. I must work hard. I must not forget the amount of tears I shed because of my sucky results. So I have to do well if not history gonna repeat itself again. Just jolly well get back to study. Still have the guilt feeling damn. Should I tell anyone about it. Hmm.

Insecure. So much what ifs.