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its getting pretty hard to get to sleep recently. :/ im like sleeping at one plus or two plus even when i have nothing to do cause my phone was charging. this is bad like really baddd. every morning i will tell myself that i'll sleep earlier that night but it just didnt happen >< but i felt the impact of not having enough sleep today :/ i felt like fainting haha but luckily i didnt! shall take a gooood rest! went shopping with shihui today! :D i saw this black dress that was quite nice but i think mum will scold so, as usual i didnt get it luh. i told mum about it just now when she called back, hoping that she will tell me to get it hehe! :P going KL on 25 jan! i hope i can get many many nice and new clothes thereeee :D and i got myself two new earrings today! :D I always got the urge to spend money when I'm not feeling good >

Second day at ambush and it was a night shift :) it was busier than lunch but I prefer night shift I guess :) because I will keep myself very very busy till I got no time to think about anything else :) the people there today are pretty nice! :) and food is damn good too :P and I was kind of lucky cause I worked with Peijun today :D at least I didn't eat alone and I didn't go home alone :) Today was a busy day! Went to watch ah boy to men with sis and cousins and yes, qian is super troublesome ._. How can someone spoil their slipper in the midst of a movie ._. Oh well, went kovan to buy shoe and wanted to go bowling but ended up we went to nex arcade instead :) I had fun there :) and I saw Shihui!! :) very happy to see her :) she gives me a very comforting feeling and I love her :) and I saw Gillian today cause she worked lunch shift! :) I feel very happy to see Gillian too!! All these people are those I see everyday in the past! And I really miss them alot, each and everyone...

I didn't realise it's 1:09 alr :/ been sleeping quite late recently and it's pretty bad because my forehead starts to show evidence of me sleeping late :/ I always say I want to sleep early but ended up I didn't. I wouldn't say today was a extremely bad day nor will I say it's a good one. Consist of both ba :) Bad was because I couldn't control myself but good was cause I finally 想通了 at night which is pretty good and I feel much better? Thanks for the advice! Oh ambush tmr! Hope it will be okay :) I'll be faster tmr :) I'll do my best :) ah boy to men with sis tmr shall just enjoy myself hehe! :) okay it's late gonna sleep :) and there's alot of lightning and thunder tonight. I kept the clothes for mum in case she wake up panicking in the middle of the night haha >

Waiting for mum now to come out from the toilet and it's kind of bored to wait alone so I shall blog :) saw Jiawei here! :) and i took a stronger flu med today already cause I don't seems to recover but the ironic thing is I'm eating macs. 以毒攻毒 > There's ambush tmr again yay :) I kind of like going there to work :) i hope nothing will go wrong hehe :) I'm really trying very hard to do something that I hate to. Oh well this sucks.

First day of ambush was pretty okay :) just that my leg hurts abit haha :) on the way home now :) I think the people there are pretty nice :) I like working haha :) time pass very quickly. And the food is very nice too haha :) Shall go home rest and continue my book hahah :) 梦和现实的差距 有的时候让你感到灰心 世界无情 只要记得我在这里陪你~

About 2 more hours to work! :) hahaha oh well I'll just do my best hehe :) idk what to do now eh! I think I woke up too early. Maybe I should just go bathe and stone hehe. Hope everything goes well :) but things will eventually be okay de la. if it's not okay, it's not the end :) bye!

Two more new books! :) shall take my time to read hehe! Finally bought my black shoes today :) ambush tmr! Actually I'm kind of scared luh :/ hahah but nvm I'll just give my best heheh! :) Actually it's kind of sad that things don't go your way. Isn't it?

Another storybook that I finished :) the author is a pretty good one and I read some of her books before :) going to borrow more tmr to kill my time :) In the past, what I always worry is which subject or which homework havent finish, but now I'm like worrying bout what to do the next day. I'm tired of saying I'm bored already. But there's really like nothing much to do :/ anyway I'm starting to write journal again, I think it's good to have a habit of writing :) Oh well it's late already. Probably I should sleep soon :) goodnight!

Went Johor today with aunt hehe! I'm beginning to like going Johor maybe because going Johor is better than rotting at home ): eat and eat then buy groceries hehe and come back :) OHSHIT and I haven't got my black shoe. It's so hard to buy a shoe ): either not suitable or no my size. :/ anyway watching movie with sis on thu before work yay! :) hehe!

I don't know what's with my dreams recently :/ I keep 被梦吓醒 and this is kind of horrible. My heart is still beating super fast :/ I think I'm dying from boredom > Goodbye :) and smile :)

The title was the book that I had been reading. Finished this book today and it was a pretty good book! I realised I like to read Chinese book haha :) Today was horrible though. All I did, except for reading the book, was just sleeping :/ took the flu med and I guess it was the medicine that make me sleep > And I sort of miss red camp :/ hahah well, don't be sad that its over, be happy that it happened. I think poly life really suit me better :O hmm. Idk > Goodbye and be happy smile :)

Shall edit this post haha :P _________________________ HELLO! :D haha currently on the bus home from ngee ann :) didn't post for the past three days because was at the red camp! :D it was a really fun and amazing camp! Despite being tired, I really don't mind going for a fourth day if they have haha :) Day 1! took the shuttle bus there and the SL were welcoming us to the camp as we head to the convention centre. they were cheering and could feel the highness hahaa :) went to the IT,design, engineering and business school :) the business school MC were twins and the way they speak very funny :) they had activities in each different school, like maybe we had to make a wind turbine to see who had the highest voltage, design a toy care, promote something :) Day 2 was less tiring compared to day 1! We went to media and humans school :) I think media was pretty cool cause we did the 配音 for kungfu panda, and there was this software that can make your head look like another anima...

Got into ambush today hehe! Luckily sly was there cause I was really kind of scared :/ anyway the manager so nice and friendly haha :D great day today anyway :) heheh. But idk what made me so tired >

First day of freedom! I think I'm going to be tired of it soon already > Went bowling today hehe I think I was just lucky la :P heheh! Anyway aunt and all are planning to go Macau next march holiday! But plans can be change also haha :) I need to start earning money soon!! Have to pay myself if I want to go Macau with them! I still haven't watch any shows today hehe shall start watching them tomorrow :) hehe goodnight :)

ITS OVERRRRR :D all that we have work for, for this year, finally ended. suddenly feel so empty, like there's nothing to work for, nothing to do. haha :/ going to look for a job, to at least find something meaningful to do and experience something new before going to a new environment next year :) today, is really the last day of school already. so much so much things will be the last time i'm doing it but i'll always remember it. 如果可以再选择，我还会要再读中学。but we need to grow up, we need to experience new things, we need to see more of the world, we cannot always stay under the protection of our parents. its time to move on to the next phrase already! "an end is the beginning of something new" i've seen this in many blogs and places, and yeah i guess i agree too. don't be sad that it's over, be glad that it once happened :) 美好的事情，一次就够了。这样我们才会更珍惜，永远记住。:) going to cherish whatever i have now and be contented with it! :) ohhhh and i finish packing my things...

Just woke up from my nap! :D I woke up feeling very happy because I had alot of nice dreams :) but also I woke up feeling very drained, because I didn't slept well last night > Chemistry today was.. Okay I guess! Feel really thankful that I did the practises :) because all those that came out was those that I did wrongly at first >

事实在眼前，而我们有两个选择。一，选择接受。 二，假装不知道。逃避也不是办法，也改变不了什么东西。

This feeling is weird. Like my head feel kind of dizzy and all. I hope that I'll be okay soon >

Yay another fun day at Naomi's house :) it's nice for the three of us to come tgt again :) ever since trng stop, we didn't really talk much alr > Prata at her house downstairs then studied and talk quite abit heheh! Ryo is cute as ever hehe! And I slept on the bed >

It's Tuesday already. One week seems to pass quite fast but slow at the same time. I'm starting to contradict myself again. Hahaha parents at home today going over to nao's house later :) Physics as usual seems boring. Mum seems to be pms-ing real badly and sis have been scolded quite alot by her these few days. Oh well, I must be good so I won't get scolded by her~ I haven't watch any show today but aiya now if she see me watching, she will claim that I've watched the whole day, so what's the point? And da yi say she can fetch me from genting if I want to go back~ but I have to go back for a month eh > I hope.... They say you shouldn't say your wish out if not they won't come true. :) jiayouuuu!

It was a great day with Sonia today hehe! :) super long nv go out with her alr :) went shopping and all and hehehe I think we very efficient :P went lunch with Shihui before meeting Sonia :)) Hmm sorry. Hope everything will be alright for you soon! Oh I need to start doing tys!! Thu is coming soon >

人与人之间难免会有磨擦。 因为意见不合，就会有些不愉快。若那个人坚持要把另一个人接受并且照自己的想法去做，那可能会更严重。 Hmm okay something I learn over dinner today. Hmmm.. Went tampines today and suddenly thought of many many things like 士林and etc. hmmm..

i just realised that i cant really do physics :/ like not motivated at all to do it unlike chemistry. anyway its really bored at home! i finish all the housework hehe i think mum will be glad that she wont have to do it haha :) and i finish packing my clothes cupboard hehe! look so much neater and tidier :) and 真爱找麻烦 is really a very nice show! gillian has been saying that its a nice show :) ..... im really very very very bored. oh crap nvm, find a job after o ba :) shall go download songs before going out with parents i think! seeee yaaaa :D smile :D

Aunt and family are here for dinner today :) actually I like how they come here every sat and how we go there every sun. :) but sometimes mum think it's a trouble :/ hmmm.. I shall enjoy all these while we still have it :) Feel so tired today :/ like finally crashed after days of sleepless night :/ haha anyway I'm a helpful girl today :) I did quite alot of housework :) Indeed, an eye for an eye make the world blind. I don't want to be blind.

I just realise that my post ytd wasn't published! > A post before I sleep hehe! Everyone seems to be working now :) I feel so excited for them :) i also want to work haha :) anyway all the best to everyone that's woking tmr!! :) may the first day of work be fine for everyone :) 心情不好的人，希望你们快快变快乐！ 生病的人，快快好起来 大家要开心:)

I need to sleep before 1130. Hmm boring day today :/ all I did was to watch show, housework, 2 MCQ, and nothing else >

hmmm hcl today was.. difficult :/ paper one was okay but paper two was like idk how to do alot and i only give one or two sentences answer because i had no time but i didnt want to have any blanks in the paper. but well, chinese is over so yeah i shall not think about it! :) O seems to be coming to an end, but yet its not ending haha. actually charm was right, this is like the best time, like o hasnt over then all you need is just to practise and no more humans :) must continue doing sciences and try to aim for full marks for paper one :) cant wait to work after o :D im really curious how it is like to work haha. it was quite relaxing at charm house today! i really like her house environment hahah but charm, this is not a confession so dont be scare :P JIAYOUU BE HAPPYY :D

OH YES LAST HUMAN PAPER! hmm i didnt think alot for today's paper, haha! somehow i got quite some questions that im unsure of but whatever, its over so i should not think about it and go and study my chinese! lalalala how do you study chi? :/ hmm i shall read some essays and practise ba hehe! :D exam is coming to an end soon! :D today that person called hmm kind of think that the chances of her giving me the job is quite low ba! but then yeah shall look for a job soooon! :D JIAYOU HUIWENNNNNNN!

Sorry my friends if i looked as if i was in a bad mood today > Sometimes it is hard to stop thinking. But you have to. JIAYOU HUIWEN

This is pretty bad. But luckily this didnt come during the hell week, if not I might just screw the papers which is worse. Slept quite alot in the evening so I guess I'm staying up to make up ba :/ human geog is really wanting my life :/ I just finish development and tourism. I thought development was hard but I realise industry is the real hard one :/ lalala. Anything la all these will be over soon. This is soooooo boring like really > Oh today I made watermelon juice heheh was just trying out the blender and there happen to be watermelon in the fridge so it became my experiment hahah. Mum was nice to me today :) I think actually everyone is nice. But am I taking them for granted? I ought to do something about my temper. It's pretty bad that's gonna ruin me some day.

Super unproductive day but hmmm it was a day that was rather complicated. I would say I had fun but also guilty. I guess I won't suggest that anymore too > Wanted to cycle but it kept raining so yeah ): had to push the plan. We couldn't walk too cause it was raining ): but Global Chinese Music Award was nice!!! :D like super high after watching it! :D singing together with the singer at home lol > Hmm Cindy said that 23,24,25 will have darkness but it won't end. Hmmmm.. Will the world really experience all the these things? Really not sure eh. Nvm, wait till it happen then i'll know lol > Really hope everything is fine for everyone. Everything will be okay in the end, if it isn't, it's not the end. So Jiayou everyone :) be happy!!

Hmm I feel quite of guilty for shouting at mum just now :/ sorry > Had mcspicy for lunch!! :) I think I last ate it a year ago because of pimples! > Human geog is so dryyyyyy. > Hmmmmm. Was wondering 人死后回去哪里？sometimes I imagine that probably we will be in heaven looking down at your families or friends, but sometimes I just feel that it doesn't exist? Like probably when you stop breathing, you will not feel anything anymore. Hmmm. Will the world really come to an end? :O I guess not. Actually I won't mind if world end. Crazy me with nonsensical thinking! Hope tmr will be productive :) jiayouuuu everyone :) endureeee and it will be over soon :)

today feel so good hehe! finally finally a break, a long break but yeah, im not going to rest for too long because i need to study human geog!! i will use this chance to make up for the mistakes i lost in paper 1! wanted to come home and sleep but ended up slacking but idk what i did hehe. shall have a good long night sleep tonight before starting to mug again :) today is the first time i came out of the hall feeling so happy hehe! its been pretty long since i felt that happy but yeah whats over is over and im not going to think about it again! im not going to compare answer after the paper and also im just going in to the hall with the mentality that i will just do my best without caring my results. i think i worried too much about the marks that i panic and worry too much during the paper itself and cause myself to not do as well. O is coming to an end soon! hell week is over omg i survived like yes i did it :D just 5 more papers to go and i guess this will really be the end of x...