im-perfection

So.. Gillian came to me randomly and asked me to post about my dream wedding. When I was younger, my dream wasn't to become a 女强人 or a lawyer. My dream is to get married, start a family, have my own kids, and spend my life with my family.  So to start off, I always wanted to get married before 25 years old. To some, it may be very young, but of course, I have my reasons. I don't want to have a wide age gap between me and my children. I don't want to be still earning money to support my child's education at the age of 55. But obviously, you need to find the right guy before you can get married. It cannot be rushed. This used to be my dream wedding.  On the beach, when the sun is setting. I'll have many blue flowers around the wedding venue and invite my close friends and my family to attend my wedding.  But.. As I grow older, I took into consideration of other things.  I might just give up on wedding dinner. (Let me explain, don't...

Stop being pessimistic.  Not your style. 

These days, I have been thinking. Nothing much, and these thoughts just come at random time. I must say, I've been told quite a little more to the real world compared to the past. It's scary and disgusting to know some things some times, and all these oppose my own perceptions and thoughts of the world. I would say, you need to experience all these on your own before you will believe it. When i was first told, I refused to believe but now, not anymore. I'm rather thankful because these are the things that no one has ever told me before. "Either you shine, or you dim the light of others." "Being too nice to others is being cruel to yourself." "It's not your intentions that matter. It's the impression you give others." The first one sounds mean, competitive and selfish, but don't be too quick to judge. It's true, otherwise others will outshine you. I think as long as you don't 耍心机 to harm others in the really bad way，违...

It's 12.10am now.  I'm lying on my bed. That's quite early, because I usually sleep at 1.15am or so.  I'm actually quite tired, even though I'm having my holiday now. Honestly, this is my well-deserved break.  Holiday feels really good this time because I think I haven't had time for myself for at least a year. I'm always busy with the different things at the different time, one after another, so I hardly have time alone.  I think I felt happier this holiday because it feels good. Waking up late (not so often cause I'm tutoring at 10) feels really different. Or at least, waking up to nothing on feels great. No assignment, not much of cca stuff, and almost nothing to worry.  I know I can't have this lifestyle forever, but for this holiday, I really felt it was necessary. Though it was goal-less, aimless, but I really enjoyed and had my rest.  I'm starting to miss my friends, so I wanna get back to school to talk crap and listen to their craps :)  ...

(This was typed halfway and saved in my draft)  Hello! :)  Went out in the morning with the idol (don't secretly smile ok tsk). Been long since i last went out with friends, it felt really great :D It was definitely a pigging session, looking at the amount of food we ate in 3 hours.  So we had llao llao first (my first try) , then the Indonesian BBQ food which was really nice too.  And lastly, Smoothie King before i left to give tuition :)  hahaha, thankful to have this friend in poly. :)  -end of draft-  Alright, so here's a new post. Went out with yan yan today and we watched cafe waiting love. OH MY IT IS REALLY A SUPER GOOOOD MOVIE :D i think i want to read the book now hehe. Been long since i last read a Chinese novel.  JIEJIE I LOVE YOU! :D

Today is a mixed feelings day.  So helped out with ECDA's conference which was pretty interesting. It's cool to see familiar faces, and trying hard to recall where you last saw them. Actually this field is pretty much interesting. Thought of how to continue my career actually hehe. Something bad happened. My gum is swollen now, I suspect wisdom tooth growing but I think I saw 3 growing?! This is driving me crazy. But only one is seriously pain that I had to swallow plain rice. Sigh.  Thankful that boyfriend is back. I have never felt so overly attached to someone before (ok except YAN YAN cause I'm quite an overly attached friend). But anyway welcome backkkkkk and thanks for tolerating the nonsense I gave you tonight.  Anyway 叛逃 is nice hahahhaha I.. Got a little affected by the show and I'm sad, anxious and worried cause of the show. I'm crazy hahaha.  Goodnight! 

Jiayou for prelims, my friends out there :)  For those that are overseas, have fun too ok :)  I love y'all <3

Dislike sleeping with such feelings. But well, it's late. Goodnight. 

Hi, so here is a post of my Hong Kong trip as promised :) Thanks gillian for the message, she became a rabbit and hopped here.  so i left Singapore on Friday afternoon :) thanks gillian and peijun for coming! <3 Day 1 - Friday  heh, i must say the sky view on the plane was really nice, especially when it is the sunset :)  reached the hotel at about 10 and we went to the street for a walk. so i bought a pair of toms there :D and after that, came back to the hotel for a rest.  Day 2: Saturday.  Dim Sum breakfast :D what's hongkong without dimsum right? :) i'm sorry my friends because i can't buy dim sum back for y'all.  the second day in Hong Kong was spent at the Ocean Park :) and i am proud to say i was the tourist bringing them around :) i did not get lost ok.  heh, with the real panda and the fake panda. lucky us managed to see the panda :D  hahaha bhb abit, but i think this photo very...