Another new chapter begins.

15 August 2016, the day I lost something that was important to me at that point of time. To be very honest, even though an end to a relationship was common and I told people that we can't be 100% confirm that he will be the one because shit just happens sometimes, I didn't expect shit to happen to me. I really thought I found the partner whom I'm going to spend my life with. This may sound naive, clinche, funny or contradicting, but I really thought that way. 

Definitely, I was heartbroken. I was upset. I cried. I talked to myself. Keep telling myself that if it's not meant to be it, then so be it. Keep telling myself that ending everything now is better than ending it in the future when there are more responsibilities. I'm glad that my mind was clear, positive and logical, even though my heart wasn't too well. 

I'm thankful to all the people who has comforted me. I know that I still have many family and friends who love me alot. My kids were my happy pills too. Even though they know nothing about it, they still cheer me up in their own way every day. 

I won't say that I have completely let everything go, but I won't rush myself. I'll take as much time as I need to recover while still living my life to the fullest. There are still many things in life that makes me happy so I'll enjoy and treasure them while they last.  

To be fair, I was really happy and I learnt many things during the relationship so it shall stay as a beautiful memory in my life. 

I've thought through many things for the past one month. Thought of everything that happened, thought about my future. I'll definitely learn from this experience to become a better person. 

I'm stronger than before and feeling better than before. Jiayou huiwen 💪🏻