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Wah for once I feel so screwed! Countdown later and I haven't buy the present for my mortal > Today lunch was like so busy. Full house but now I'm busy lol. Okay plan now. Go home bathe then go steamboat( but I'm too full to eat ._.) then go amk at 730 and go buy the thing. Okay just like that bye! I'm reaching woodleigh. Thank goodness there's seat today.

Woohoo time at shoe shop pass like super super fast today!! :D talked to ah le (Meier god daughter) and she's really very very nice! :D so I asked for her opinion about ****'s present and she say should be can haha :) Mum came back saying that aunt want to celebrate qing's birthday ._. And happen that me and sis going countdown and my aunt say we 不够意思. I mean like it wasn't that we last min plan to go countdown right ._. Countdown was like planned super early. So going to have steamboat at her house then go Kawee house ba. Okay work tmr morning I'll sleep early :)

Hmm morning had a rather bad news. Hmm really hope the report will turn out well 3 weeks later. Think positive is all we can do now ba? Actually if the report don't turn out well, I really dk what will happen :/ please please really please, let it be fine? )': Night shift for ambush with Gillian and Aderic :) busy night with big group like 16 people, 13 people and 7 people. It's hard to sit big group down when it's full house > Thanks Aderic for taking my night shift!! Gillian say my face turn weird after looking at the schedule :/ really sorry > I realise I'm always talking about ambush. Hmm now that im working more in ambush, somehow it seems to become a part of my life now. Really really thankful that I decided to join them last min cause I didn't went interview with Gillian PJ Shihui and all. Shoe shop tmr goodnight :) thanks and sorry and please turn out to be fine.

It's weird to have random thinkings in the night like now > Suddenly I feel really glad that I worked this holiday. To be honest, I don't really find my jobs tiring. I think the experience aren't too bad. Like you meet people of different age and get to feel how is it like to work with different people. For me, I feel good when the customer praise me. I feel guilty when I made mistakes too but through all these, I learn. Working make me more motivated to study hard because I don't want to end up having a shitty job next time. I really hope when results come out, I won't regret. Idk what to feel about results. Sometimes, I feel excited because I'm curious about how I did. But sometimes, I just hope it don't come out. Because I'm really afraid that all I get will be disappointment. And also idk why I'm still indecisive. I rmb at then, I was so sure that I wanted poly so I went to DPA. Actually jc doesn't seems like a bad choice. But I'm ...

Oops it's past midnight haha! Opening with Beth today hehehe :) I like to do opening with Beth :) time pass really very fast for afternoon shift :) Adrian was the dishwasher for the early afternoon cause the dishwasher was late but luckily the afternoon crowd wasn't alot so the few of us could still handle it :) tried green presto and Rosti today :) I think it's quite nice la haha :) going to work till 930 on Monday but I scare reach Kawee house very late alr > Bought a present for ** hahah and I finally know what to get for my mortal alr! :) hehehe met Yongkang to discuss about the games too but hmmm not very productive cause we dk what to do > Helping out with shoe shop in the morning tmr before ambush. not because i needed money but cause it really needed people so I'm going. So goodnight la must sleep if not tmr will be very tired!

Was on the phone with Shihui till almost two whoops hahah as though I'm not working opening tomorrow haha > Morning was pretty great and it started out well I guess :) went nex to shop for the wallet and the cotton on top but I didn't got the top cause no size ): but GUESS WHATTTT!! I FOUND IT IN PS YAY!!! :D HEHEHEH!!! Went to popular to talk to charm too hehe! And hope she didn't get scolded but I really miss her alot!! Ambush at night! It was back to busy again which was like good la haha :) time pass very fast today and thankfully quite smooth also! :) I forget to key in one order >

boohooo MERRRY MERRRY CHRISTMASSSSSS!! :D amazingly i woke up to go breakfast at ikea with my family when i slept at like 2 >< breakfast was nice laaa hehe just that i pissed everyone off before leaving the house >< actually its nice to spend time with family! :) sent sis to work then head to parkway to recontract my phone! got me so pissed because we took like one hour to decide to recontract because alot of things changed then mum decided to go tampines to change it. but when we reach tampines, the queue was like super long and we had to wait for like more than 50 people so we went back to parkway again >< at there, we waited for an hour plus. so took like more than 4 hours to just recontract. and worse was that my phone was dying and my SIM card deactivated like just two mins after everything was done. they gave me the nano sim so i had to get an adapter >< the happy thing was that i saw this wallet from this shop and this top from cotton on! sha...

HAHAHA past 1 alr so MERRRY CHRISTMASSSS PEOPLE :D went to find the guys just now haha! :) it's nice to see everyone and I realise alot people stay in hougang haha!! Full day at ambush today but it was really okay la :) not really busy lol! But something happened... But shall not talk about it! Anyway these two customers that I took order from were so funny but I almost died taking their order haha > so had pizza and KFC after work YAYYY hahaha :) okay it's a great day! No work later wooohoo so post later again goodbye :) and thanks cat!!!! :D

Went to taka instead of plaza sing today cause taufik was sick! Hmm it was rather busy but still okay la :) orchard is like filled with super much people and cars > Full day tmr at ps :) haha saw Jesmond today in the train lol! Its my student care that one anyway haha :) okay laaaa post tmr ba goodbye :)

Work at ambush was extended today cause weile couldn't come I think :O but overall work was pretty okay la :) kind of busy though > Waiting for Shihui now hehehe! :) dinner shift tmr :) so I can spend my morning with my family tmr! :) HEHEHHE. :D

The world supposed to end today right? :O HAHAA. But yeah not possible luh :) was on the way to work and suddenly thought of the song 诺亚方舟. 如果今夜就要和一切告别 如果你只能打一通电话 你会拨给谁〜 Opening today with dino! And this afternoon was like very very busy > Went to shop for Christmas present for my neighbour after work and finally got the presents and I finish wrapping it :) Okkkk goodbye! Tangyuan later again! :)

ambush today from 1230-530 :) this week my shift are mostly in the afternoon which is a good thing also la :) wont have to wash my own clothes and also i get to go home earlier :) i realise lunch shift is not as busy as dinner shift. but today it seems like it was pretty busy >< was walking home from the MRT station and suddenly had to urge to go for a walk or jog haha. but i didnt jog luh, thats like killing myself LOL. so i bathed and went down for a walk. sat there for some time staring at the grass and listening to the sound of the animals inside the grass. i miss everything. really alot. but i guess it would be better that i just not show anything or what, probably this will be the best. anyway the chef gave me chicken wing today haha! and opening with dino tmr, shall sleep early tonight :) goodbye everyone. enjoy your holidays :)

Hellooooo :) Off day today hehe! :) actually off day also nothing much to do la > Sent grandma and aunt they all off just now. If I nv work then I'll be going back with them also but it's okay la, I'll work now and enjoy later hehe! :) mum having off from tmr tell next thur like soooo longggg but I'll be working so no difference haha > So cold tonight okay byeeee.

It takes time I guess. Time do awesome things but it makes us grow old at the same time. 而时间过了就是过了,再也回不到错过的上一秒. Work 1-6 at ambush today hehe! It was quite okay la, not as busy because it was near the end of lunch crowd and almost the starting of dinner crowd. I like working in ambush, idk why. Today I learn that espresso are serve in super small cup cause its highly concentrated coffee! I tried the sweet corn soup today heheh! And I tried passionfruit soda today heheh! :P it was niceee :) I guess that's why people like to drink it :) so tmr is my off day heheh! And the next off would probably be next Sunday alr so shall have a good rest tmr :) Blahhhh and I'm such a failed card maker > Okay bye! :)

Hahah idk what's with my title too. :P it's hard to find a title okay HAHA. Soo full time at ambush today and i think it was okay la :) haha time in ambush pass very fast when it's busy :) Adrian let me do order taking in the afternoon and I did runner for the first time at the night :) I made quite a bit of mistakes like didnt put mustard for the sausages but overall not very serious mistakes la haha > Hehe adrian let me tried the garlic bread today when it's like still hot haha! It taste very different when it's hot and cold! OFC hot is nicer la duhhh hahaha! Then I tried the cauliflower soup which is nice too!! :D hehehe! And dino let me tried the ice tea which taste super horrible when there's no syrup added! > Tmr will be 1-6 so yes can sleep late heheh! Goodnight :)

Surprisingly I went for breakfast with family this morning instead of sleeping :P heheh! And I was late for work oops but nvm la > Ambush tmrrrrr hahah another 11 hours but yeah I'm quite excited for it though :P just hope my cramps don't play a joke on me >

Something funny just happened LOL!! Soo work at ambush was pretty good today! :) Adrian extended my time till 11 :) and also I tried many many food today :D I had vongole white wine sauce for lunch :) I drank the clam chowder too :) and Adrian order calamari for us! :D had ambush paella for dinner! :) there was Rosti, fries and sausage too! :D hehhe food was really good today :P luckily I think I manage to caught the last train :) Shoe shop tmr! :) I think the next time I work shoe shop will be very long laterrrrr cause next week 6 days of ambush! :) hahaha! Soooo goodnight :)

Work was pretty good at the later part today :) got this lady ask if I was Meier's daughter haha! :D and the lady who wanted to buy shoes and keep for 10 years came again :P HEHEHH. Ambush tmrrrrrr 10 hours! :) Hope my leg don't pain okay >

Think positive think positive think positive. Actually I realise work at shoe shop is pretty slack and boring ): I like busy work haha :P so time can pass very fast :P but the people are really nice and patient :) so I've decided to give myself 2 days break next week because I think I should take a rest :) So today, I got a surprise letter!! I thought it was from nao, but turn out to be from ****** :) so touched by her letter :') and totally shocked me! Thankssss alot girl

Hihihi! I better get myself something to do before getting myself into the trouble againnnnn. Anyway the title is a song and somehow it fits in tonight. So work at ambush was pretty okay today AND I FINALLY DID ORDERING :D hehee was kinda scare to go work cause I haven't work at ambush for quite long alr :O but it turn out to be good la :) had to thank Aderic because I think he helped me quite alot today! :) and thanks everyone who taught me how to key order and Adrian showed me how things work when customer pay using cards :) Ended work quite late today and had to go home alone ): so boreddd but thankfully I got my show haha! :) anyway it's late goodnight :)

It's 12.12.12 today haha! :) Actually nothing much special isn't it? Not like something will change for the good today. Shoe shop job ytd was pretty okay :) just that I was kind of slow and lazy because my hand was aching but after that it was pretty much better! (I think praying works! Cause I prayed for my arm to not ache!) but actually depends on one's beliefs :) and there was this girl which was about 2-3 years old which was so cute!!! :D I helped her to put on the shoe then while she was trying to walk around with that shoe, she held my finger! :) and please, im not a pedo! I think small kids are cute and they make my day :) So i spent my 12.12.12 with my dear shihui :)) Went to plaza sing in the morning! (But not to work.) hahah went to shop for paper at paper market ahah :) not those market that sells poultry and fishes! :P it was a great morning out with Shihui! :) finally got the things I need but I think I won't have time to finish it oh shit > I feel...

HEEEEELLOOOOOO :D It's 12.04pm now :) my morning was well spent with pj at ikea! :) it's been long since I had such a good morning :) ytd was great too :) tmr will be great with Shihui too!! :D had meatballs, chicken wing and croissant for breakfast! :) went around looking for things then had icecream while pj had hotdog bread :) Shoe shop work later at 1! :) and my muscle is aching haha cause haven't exercise for long time >

wowwwwwww its two weeks already. today was a great day haha :) glad to see almost everyone! got the "back to school" feeling again! i really wonder when will be the next time im stepping in to school except the results day. meeting, then bball and vball too :) thanks kang! i was more of like 发泄 than playing but he still played with me! sorry >< felt so much better after vball :) actually i like playing volleyball but then i dont like training. then frolick with gillian and shihui! :D yummmmm i havent had frolick for very longggggggg! plan for tmr will be ikea with peijunnn! :D then lunch with grandma and shoe shop work! yayyy! so this week is full of work againnn but dont worry, i wont overwork de :) i think im going to have blueblack and muscle ache tmr hahahah but aiya nvm, i had fun, thats the most impt thing! :)

Ended up working till 930 for shoe shop today! :) actually shoe shop job is really easy and carefree :) I was telling mei er (boss's sister) that ambush only gave me two days next week then she ask me go shoe shop work haha! :) Today was kind of busy! And yes I see different type of people lol > Going to work the whole next week except tmr so shall enjoy my day out with fishes! :)

Yes. The title makes sense. I need to change. Tonight is such a shitty night. Don't ask why because everything seems to piss me off. Sis got me scolded by mum and I was really angry so I got her scolded too. Many many things I want to change. Firstly, is to be happy. Oh well, I miss how I used to be! Being positive, happy smiling and all. Looking at the post I blogged recently, I realised it's been pretty bad these days. It's all my fault. I let my thinkings screw me up badly. And now I'm going to do something about it. It's not easy but I'll change my thinkings slowly slowly bit by bit everyday. I'm tired of feeling like this too. It's not what I wanted. I shouldn't let my friends around me worry for me too. And sorry if I affected you mood too > Secondly, the second wish I wrote on that ball. Since change was my title, I shall not say much then. It's still part of my wishlist but then I don't dare to pin hope on it already. Expectati...

helloooooooooo :) its been long since i said hello in my blog i think :O haha but thats not the main point :P supposed to be working at ambush now but my slot was removed ytd! so today is my rest dayyyy yayy :) went to help yanzhen with amaths today and somehow it was fun haha :) some i couldnt do it, but after studying the answer key, it was pretty okay. working was rather easy but idk why i couldnt think of it haha. so while she was doing it, i was studying the menu also haha :) time pass really very fast when im working! like woah the week going to end again haha :) though i worked for almost the entire week, but it isnt very tiring too la haha at least i got things to do :) everyday just be like wake up, do work, bathe and wash clothes then sleep~ so yeahhhhh but kind of excited for fishes outing on monday! :) very long nv meet everyone already haha :) btw claire if youre reading this, have fun at your cruise okay! throw your troubles away and have a great trip on the seaaaa ...

Today I went taka for ambush :) was kinda pissed when I was going work because it suddenly rained when I wanted to leave house and I was running late, so I was really angry with myself. I was slightly late for work today cause I couldn't find it too > There was a few number of small kids which were pretty cute :D the people working there like kids too :) cause we were like playing with the kids from far haha :) I like it when people say 'yes please' when I asked if I could clear their plates :) I think more polite and all :) but some just smiled and say thanks which was petty nice too la hehe :) I learn quite alot today, in recognising the food and all :) I hope I'll be better at the food soon :) going to work at shoe shop on Sunday from 11-4! Cause it was short so I decided to agree then ill have my night rest :)) hope the train arrive soon! :) byeeee :)

Today work at ambush was pretty bad ): just because the customer say idk anything. But it was true also la >

I was wrong again. But this time round, it's really okay already. I will just accept it :) gosh I'm goin to be late for work >

Second day at shoe shop! :) today was a much much happier work haha probably cause I'm more used to the place already :) so I feel more comfortable and time pass really fast :) I shall take back my words! Now I think both ambush and shoe shop is equally enjoyable :) so I don't mind working for both heheh! No more shoe shop for this week :) ambush from thu to sat and Sunday shall be my family and rest day! :D Tosy came today and she doubt me when I told her I was working >

7+2=9 Random LOL. Bad morning ): cause it wasn't good at all. Hmm for once, finally I slept through the night, probably cause I was really really tired till nothing kept me awake. But woke up to this loneliness. Just got the 没人要的感觉 ba > Somebody call 911~ the song currently playing. I really hope I'll get out of this soon. There's work later! Hmm maybe it's a good thing to work too :) bye!

First day at shoe shop working! :) hmm it's not as tough as ambush but I prefer working at ambush ba! Because time pass faster there haha :) but yeah I survived 10.5 hours! :P working at shoe shop is like exercising cause the stocks is at second level so we have to climb up to take. Then some is first level but high up the ceiling so we have to climb too! I need to know the places soon haha > Okay there's work tmr too >

Ambush was pretty okay today hehe! I like to work with people that I know :) but sly say he want change shift cause he dont want work with me ): haha I know they're just kidding :) idk if it's because there's more people working or there's less customer today :O but Adrian is funny haha! Kama is funny too :) I think that's his name if I nv rmb wrongly! But I think there's two side of everyone! So when it's very busy, I shouldn't do anything wrong and make them angry! So yeahhh everything and everyone remains very nice :) I think I laugh alot in ambush today haha, idk why also :) Shoe shop from 11-930 tmr :) hope things will be fine hehe! :) shall wake up and wash my clothes tmr :) first day of work, I should be fine :) anyway according to sis, the people are very nice :) goodnight everyone :)

finally got back my side of the bed last night!! its so much more comfortable to sleep on the side that you are used to it :) sleeping nearer to the wall is like so much hotter >< okay maybe i was thinking too much haha cause there shouldnt be any difference! i'm all alone at home again. grandma coming to sg probably this coming thur i think :) but i'll be working from thu to sat, so cant spend much time with her too. my mind should just stop thinking. STOP.STOP.STOP. maybe i should do selective seeing next time, read those sentences that i want to see, and ignore those that hurts. or maybe i shouldn't ask too much. i hope my stomachache go away soon :/ gooodbyeeeee hope ambush will be fine tonight :)

..... Called the shoe shop just now and maybe I might be trying out one day if it need me :) ambush with sly and Gillian tmr!! :) so glad that my shift are all with sly except for the taka day! And 2 shift with Gillian! :D gonna be a busy week and that's good I guess. 有时候最无心的话是最伤人的。 shall just lie in bed and stone ba. I hope it won't be a sleepless night again.

GOOOD AFTERNOON :) im feeling very hot these few days so i slept on the floor but mum warned me to not sleep on the floor already! >< helped to change the bedsheets just now and ended up sneezing alot cause of the soft toys on the bed :/ dad went in to johor, but then his motorbike spoilt halfway :/ shit i hope he will come back soon ><  just now adrian called and ask me to be on standby for tonight but now he called and say dont need to already haha :) for the past two days, i have been dreaming about working in ambush :/ i think i think of work too much already haha >< but its better than dreaming about other things la :) and i have a very cute friend, whom i think she should be reading this. she thought that letters can be received the next day after she posted hehe! dont you think she's very cuteeee :D excited to meet them soon! :) k shall go watch my show now byeeeeeeee :)

its a saturday :) time seems to be passing very fast yet at the same time very slowwwww. i shall be a good girl and listen to mum cause she's like a volcano, gonna erupt anytime! so the solution was to get a new line for sis, thank goodness! mum wanted to cut off my 3G but luckily didnt, i think i'll die without data haha :/ was having a bad headache for the whole night ytd, i think it was due to insufficient of sleep >< luckily i felt better this morning :) shall watch 真爱找麻烦 today hehe! its kind of boring to stay at home but i cant go out too ): firstly is cause of mum and secondly is going out need to spend alot of money >< hahah i just had durian! neighbour bought 2 for us! :D usually i wont eat the durian but today i just ate some :) k shall continue with my show goooodbyeeeeeeeee!