Change needed.

Yes. The title makes sense. I need to change. Tonight is such a shitty night. Don't ask why because everything seems to piss me off. Sis got me scolded by mum and I was really angry so I got her scolded too.

Many many things I want to change. Firstly, is to be happy. Oh well, I miss how I used to be! Being positive, happy smiling and all. Looking at the post I blogged recently, I realised it's been pretty bad these days. It's all my fault. I let my thinkings screw me up badly. And now I'm going to do something about it. It's not easy but I'll change my thinkings slowly slowly bit by bit everyday. I'm tired of feeling like this too. It's not what I wanted. I shouldn't let my friends around me worry for me too. And sorry if I affected you mood too ><

Secondly, the second wish I wrote on that ball. Since change was my title, I shall not say much then. It's still part of my wishlist but then I don't dare to pin hope on it already. Expectation leads to disappointment.

Thirdly, I'm going to change my sleeping time. This is way too bad for me. Mum has been telling me about my face. So much for now. Goodnight.

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