Doubt.

Tonight feels so different. 

I want to be left alone, yet I don't want to feel alone. 

I want to shut myself from the world. I just want a day or two to sleep my day off, to not have anything to do. 

I hate to feel pressured. I dislike packed schedule.

I wonder if I'm being influenced because this ain't my style. Sigh. So tired of these, but I'll be saying bye soon. 

Finally. 

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