im-perfection

I guess life's getting better? :) Ohwellll I totally screwed my ss paper :/ why the hell did I gamble by just studying one theme and I spent like so much time on it yet it didn't come out?! Crapp. Totally freestyle all the way today :/ Haiy. SS 的成绩就靠天了吧. Maths was hmmmm not as hard as i expected but me got a bad feeling that Amaths paper one will be hard :/ oh well nvmmmm just do my best alright. Jiayou huiwen don't give up on urself and work hard! One's success dont just drop from the sky. It's the small little effort they put in everyday.

Oh damn it's just 625 in the morning and it's a saturday morning ._. I should be sleeeeping but can't sleep :/ argh too much things on my mind again. Hmm will I be able to tell him again :/ oh well nvm then. Anyway im so glad that I still have a senior :') I really won't know what to do. Oh and huiwen STOP SLACKING IF YOU DON'T WANT TO DO BADLY FOR MYE ._. Jiayou!

Tomorrow is the first paper > 我是乎好像越来越没信心了，我现在真的真的没法再承受什么打击了。真的需要把原来的我找回来，以前那快乐，不放弃的我。 总觉得老天在耍我。

我做的决定是对的吗？ 我会后悔吗？ 我是否已确定了吗？无论发生什么事，后果就由我承担吧。累了也泪了，倦了一切的一切。或许也该这样吧。 再给我一些时间，可能在那时候我就会告诉你们我心里所有的想法。

Moody monday. It sound nice huh. :P siaoooo. I think I really going crazy already :/ don't know whether if it's just I'm tired or im really going crazy :/ everything around me seems just as moody as me :/ the sky ): why must it darken :/ Haiy. 难道老天也和我一样吗？ maths test results. Hmm kind of depressing yet at the other hand not really. Oh well what am I talking about seriously. I hope it isn't the books that make me become like that :/ urgh Thursday Thursday thursday. Siannnnn.

4 MORE DAYS OHNO. I think I wasted quite a lot of time > From tmr onward i will mug real hard jiayouuuu huiwen!!

MIDYEAR MIDYEAR MIDYEAR. 先苦后甜. JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU.

为什么我再怎么努力还是会比别人差，为什么最好的科目都不比别人好，为什么我会那么差，那么没用。 我尝试了，但还是不行，一直告诉自己不要放弃，但都是嘴里说的，一次次的失败给我的打击有时真的的是受不了，我想我并不像我想象的那么坚强。每个人都有一个承受不了的极限，我想我的极限到了。受不了了，好想好想就此放弃,但是我不能。为什么成绩变成那么差，就连最好的也成为最差的，为什么每个测验不是不及格就是干好及格。我是不是还是不够努力呢？

Got back Physics paper today! Hmm I still failed :/ but at least this time round got improvement which is a good thing ba :O to be honest, I'm not disappointed, but also not very happy la. I hope for a pass ): if it wasn't for my carelessness, I would have pass!!! ): haiyyyy. Nvm at least I got the concept alr ba. Just don't be so careless during mye ba! Huiwen Jiayou!!! :D don't give upppp.

Yesterday's physics test was not difficult I think :O but I don't know if I can pass anot :/ but I guess I won't be failing too badly ah :/ took the same bus home with a group of people ytd! And 很热闹! Hahah :) its been long since I went home with so many people! Everyone used to have CCAs or they are busy with their commitments. Heh but I guess everyone have to stop and start revising for mye! Physics 这个石头可以放下了，wait till results come back then I shall see what I'm not sure about so I can recise and practise that chap. :) today shall be a happppy day cause I'm going to eat frolick with Shihui today! :) goooodbye!

Physics test tomorrow. I MUST PASS THE TEST TOMORROW. I know I put in my best effort, so whatever the result is, I know i done my best. So whatever the result is, I won't cry. Be it tears of joy or tears of disappointment. I must believe that I can do it!