为什么我再怎么努力还是会比别人差，为什么最好的科目都不比别人好，为什么我会那么差，那么没用。 我尝试了，但还是不行，一直告诉自己不要放弃，但都是嘴里说的，一次次的失败给我的打击有时真的的是受不了，我想我并不像我想象的那么坚强。每个人都有一个承受不了的极限，我想我的极限到了。受不了了，好想好想就此放弃,但是我不能。为什么成绩变成那么差，就连最好的也成为最差的，为什么每个测验不是不及格就是干好及格。我是不是还是不够努力呢？
Another new chapter begins.
15 August 2016, the day I lost something that was important to me at that point of time. To be very honest, even though an end to a relationship was common and I told people that we can't be 100% confirm that he will be the one because shit just happens sometimes, I didn't expect shit to happen to me. I really thought I found the partner whom I'm going to spend my life with. This may sound naive, clinche, funny or contradicting, but I really thought that way. Definitely, I was heartbroken. I was upset. I cried. I talked to myself. Keep telling myself that if it's not meant to be it, then so be it. Keep telling myself that ending everything now is better than ending it in the future when there are more responsibilities. I'm glad that my mind was clear, positive and logical, even though my heart wasn't too well. I'm thankful to all the people who has comforted me. I know that I still have many family and friends who love me alot. My kids were my happy pills ...
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