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Wah for once I feel so screwed! Countdown later and I haven't buy the present for my mortal > Today lunch was like so busy. Full house but now I'm busy lol. Okay plan now. Go home bathe then go steamboat( but I'm too full to eat ._.) then go amk at 730 and go buy the thing. Okay just like that bye! I'm reaching woodleigh. Thank goodness there's seat today.

Woohoo time at shoe shop pass like super super fast today!! :D talked to ah le (Meier god daughter) and she's really very very nice! :D so I asked for her opinion about ****'s present and she say should be can haha :) Mum came back saying that aunt want to celebrate qing's birthday ._. And happen that me and sis going countdown and my aunt say we 不够意思. I mean like it wasn't that we last min plan to go countdown right ._. Countdown was like planned super early. So going to have steamboat at her house then go Kawee house ba. Okay work tmr morning I'll sleep early :)

Hmm morning had a rather bad news. Hmm really hope the report will turn out well 3 weeks later. Think positive is all we can do now ba? Actually if the report don't turn out well, I really dk what will happen :/ please please really please, let it be fine? )': Night shift for ambush with Gillian and Aderic :) busy night with big group like 16 people, 13 people and 7 people. It's hard to sit big group down when it's full house > Thanks Aderic for taking my night shift!! Gillian say my face turn weird after looking at the schedule :/ really sorry > I realise I'm always talking about ambush. Hmm now that im working more in ambush, somehow it seems to become a part of my life now. Really really thankful that I decided to join them last min cause I didn't went interview with Gillian PJ Shihui and all. Shoe shop tmr goodnight :) thanks and sorry and please turn out to be fine.

It's weird to have random thinkings in the night like now > Suddenly I feel really glad that I worked this holiday. To be honest, I don't really find my jobs tiring. I think the experience aren't too bad. Like you meet people of different age and get to feel how is it like to work with different people. For me, I feel good when the customer praise me. I feel guilty when I made mistakes too but through all these, I learn. Working make me more motivated to study hard because I don't want to end up having a shitty job next time. I really hope when results come out, I won't regret. Idk what to feel about results. Sometimes, I feel excited because I'm curious about how I did. But sometimes, I just hope it don't come out. Because I'm really afraid that all I get will be disappointment. And also idk why I'm still indecisive. I rmb at then, I was so sure that I wanted poly so I went to DPA. Actually jc doesn't seems like a bad choice. But I'm ...

Oops it's past midnight haha! Opening with Beth today hehehe :) I like to do opening with Beth :) time pass really very fast for afternoon shift :) Adrian was the dishwasher for the early afternoon cause the dishwasher was late but luckily the afternoon crowd wasn't alot so the few of us could still handle it :) tried green presto and Rosti today :) I think it's quite nice la haha :) going to work till 930 on Monday but I scare reach Kawee house very late alr > Bought a present for ** hahah and I finally know what to get for my mortal alr! :) hehehe met Yongkang to discuss about the games too but hmmm not very productive cause we dk what to do > Helping out with shoe shop in the morning tmr before ambush. not because i needed money but cause it really needed people so I'm going. So goodnight la must sleep if not tmr will be very tired!

Was on the phone with Shihui till almost two whoops hahah as though I'm not working opening tomorrow haha > Morning was pretty great and it started out well I guess :) went nex to shop for the wallet and the cotton on top but I didn't got the top cause no size ): but GUESS WHATTTT!! I FOUND IT IN PS YAY!!! :D HEHEHEH!!! Went to popular to talk to charm too hehe! And hope she didn't get scolded but I really miss her alot!! Ambush at night! It was back to busy again which was like good la haha :) time pass very fast today and thankfully quite smooth also! :) I forget to key in one order >

boohooo MERRRY MERRRY CHRISTMASSSSSS!! :D amazingly i woke up to go breakfast at ikea with my family when i slept at like 2 >< breakfast was nice laaa hehe just that i pissed everyone off before leaving the house >< actually its nice to spend time with family! :) sent sis to work then head to parkway to recontract my phone! got me so pissed because we took like one hour to decide to recontract because alot of things changed then mum decided to go tampines to change it. but when we reach tampines, the queue was like super long and we had to wait for like more than 50 people so we went back to parkway again >< at there, we waited for an hour plus. so took like more than 4 hours to just recontract. and worse was that my phone was dying and my SIM card deactivated like just two mins after everything was done. they gave me the nano sim so i had to get an adapter >< the happy thing was that i saw this wallet from this shop and this top from cotton on! sha...

HAHAHA past 1 alr so MERRRY CHRISTMASSSS PEOPLE :D went to find the guys just now haha! :) it's nice to see everyone and I realise alot people stay in hougang haha!! Full day at ambush today but it was really okay la :) not really busy lol! But something happened... But shall not talk about it! Anyway these two customers that I took order from were so funny but I almost died taking their order haha > so had pizza and KFC after work YAYYY hahaha :) okay it's a great day! No work later wooohoo so post later again goodbye :) and thanks cat!!!! :D

Went to taka instead of plaza sing today cause taufik was sick! Hmm it was rather busy but still okay la :) orchard is like filled with super much people and cars > Full day tmr at ps :) haha saw Jesmond today in the train lol! Its my student care that one anyway haha :) okay laaaa post tmr ba goodbye :)

Work at ambush was extended today cause weile couldn't come I think :O but overall work was pretty okay la :) kind of busy though > Waiting for Shihui now hehehe! :) dinner shift tmr :) so I can spend my morning with my family tmr! :) HEHEHHE. :D

The world supposed to end today right? :O HAHAA. But yeah not possible luh :) was on the way to work and suddenly thought of the song 诺亚方舟. 如果今夜就要和一切告别 如果你只能打一通电话 你会拨给谁〜 Opening today with dino! And this afternoon was like very very busy > Went to shop for Christmas present for my neighbour after work and finally got the presents and I finish wrapping it :) Okkkk goodbye! Tangyuan later again! :)

ambush today from 1230-530 :) this week my shift are mostly in the afternoon which is a good thing also la :) wont have to wash my own clothes and also i get to go home earlier :) i realise lunch shift is not as busy as dinner shift. but today it seems like it was pretty busy >< was walking home from the MRT station and suddenly had to urge to go for a walk or jog haha. but i didnt jog luh, thats like killing myself LOL. so i bathed and went down for a walk. sat there for some time staring at the grass and listening to the sound of the animals inside the grass. i miss everything. really alot. but i guess it would be better that i just not show anything or what, probably this will be the best. anyway the chef gave me chicken wing today haha! and opening with dino tmr, shall sleep early tonight :) goodbye everyone. enjoy your holidays :)

Hellooooo :) Off day today hehe! :) actually off day also nothing much to do la > Sent grandma and aunt they all off just now. If I nv work then I'll be going back with them also but it's okay la, I'll work now and enjoy later hehe! :) mum having off from tmr tell next thur like soooo longggg but I'll be working so no difference haha > So cold tonight okay byeeee.

It takes time I guess. Time do awesome things but it makes us grow old at the same time. 而时间过了就是过了,再也回不到错过的上一秒. Work 1-6 at ambush today hehe! It was quite okay la, not as busy because it was near the end of lunch crowd and almost the starting of dinner crowd. I like working in ambush, idk why. Today I learn that espresso are serve in super small cup cause its highly concentrated coffee! I tried the sweet corn soup today heheh! And I tried passionfruit soda today heheh! :P it was niceee :) I guess that's why people like to drink it :) so tmr is my off day heheh! And the next off would probably be next Sunday alr so shall have a good rest tmr :) Blahhhh and I'm such a failed card maker > Okay bye! :)

Hahah idk what's with my title too. :P it's hard to find a title okay HAHA. Soo full time at ambush today and i think it was okay la :) haha time in ambush pass very fast when it's busy :) Adrian let me do order taking in the afternoon and I did runner for the first time at the night :) I made quite a bit of mistakes like didnt put mustard for the sausages but overall not very serious mistakes la haha > Hehe adrian let me tried the garlic bread today when it's like still hot haha! It taste very different when it's hot and cold! OFC hot is nicer la duhhh hahaha! Then I tried the cauliflower soup which is nice too!! :D hehehe! And dino let me tried the ice tea which taste super horrible when there's no syrup added! > Tmr will be 1-6 so yes can sleep late heheh! Goodnight :)

Surprisingly I went for breakfast with family this morning instead of sleeping :P heheh! And I was late for work oops but nvm la > Ambush tmrrrrr hahah another 11 hours but yeah I'm quite excited for it though :P just hope my cramps don't play a joke on me >

Something funny just happened LOL!! Soo work at ambush was pretty good today! :) Adrian extended my time till 11 :) and also I tried many many food today :D I had vongole white wine sauce for lunch :) I drank the clam chowder too :) and Adrian order calamari for us! :D had ambush paella for dinner! :) there was Rosti, fries and sausage too! :D hehhe food was really good today :P luckily I think I manage to caught the last train :) Shoe shop tmr! :) I think the next time I work shoe shop will be very long laterrrrr cause next week 6 days of ambush! :) hahaha! Soooo goodnight :)

Work was pretty good at the later part today :) got this lady ask if I was Meier's daughter haha! :D and the lady who wanted to buy shoes and keep for 10 years came again :P HEHEHH. Ambush tmrrrrrr 10 hours! :) Hope my leg don't pain okay >

Think positive think positive think positive. Actually I realise work at shoe shop is pretty slack and boring ): I like busy work haha :P so time can pass very fast :P but the people are really nice and patient :) so I've decided to give myself 2 days break next week because I think I should take a rest :) So today, I got a surprise letter!! I thought it was from nao, but turn out to be from ****** :) so touched by her letter :') and totally shocked me! Thankssss alot girl

Hihihi! I better get myself something to do before getting myself into the trouble againnnnn. Anyway the title is a song and somehow it fits in tonight. So work at ambush was pretty okay today AND I FINALLY DID ORDERING :D hehee was kinda scare to go work cause I haven't work at ambush for quite long alr :O but it turn out to be good la :) had to thank Aderic because I think he helped me quite alot today! :) and thanks everyone who taught me how to key order and Adrian showed me how things work when customer pay using cards :) Ended work quite late today and had to go home alone ): so boreddd but thankfully I got my show haha! :) anyway it's late goodnight :)

It's 12.12.12 today haha! :) Actually nothing much special isn't it? Not like something will change for the good today. Shoe shop job ytd was pretty okay :) just that I was kind of slow and lazy because my hand was aching but after that it was pretty much better! (I think praying works! Cause I prayed for my arm to not ache!) but actually depends on one's beliefs :) and there was this girl which was about 2-3 years old which was so cute!!! :D I helped her to put on the shoe then while she was trying to walk around with that shoe, she held my finger! :) and please, im not a pedo! I think small kids are cute and they make my day :) So i spent my 12.12.12 with my dear shihui :)) Went to plaza sing in the morning! (But not to work.) hahah went to shop for paper at paper market ahah :) not those market that sells poultry and fishes! :P it was a great morning out with Shihui! :) finally got the things I need but I think I won't have time to finish it oh shit > I feel...

HEEEEELLOOOOOO :D It's 12.04pm now :) my morning was well spent with pj at ikea! :) it's been long since I had such a good morning :) ytd was great too :) tmr will be great with Shihui too!! :D had meatballs, chicken wing and croissant for breakfast! :) went around looking for things then had icecream while pj had hotdog bread :) Shoe shop work later at 1! :) and my muscle is aching haha cause haven't exercise for long time >

wowwwwwww its two weeks already. today was a great day haha :) glad to see almost everyone! got the "back to school" feeling again! i really wonder when will be the next time im stepping in to school except the results day. meeting, then bball and vball too :) thanks kang! i was more of like 发泄 than playing but he still played with me! sorry >< felt so much better after vball :) actually i like playing volleyball but then i dont like training. then frolick with gillian and shihui! :D yummmmm i havent had frolick for very longggggggg! plan for tmr will be ikea with peijunnn! :D then lunch with grandma and shoe shop work! yayyy! so this week is full of work againnn but dont worry, i wont overwork de :) i think im going to have blueblack and muscle ache tmr hahahah but aiya nvm, i had fun, thats the most impt thing! :)

Ended up working till 930 for shoe shop today! :) actually shoe shop job is really easy and carefree :) I was telling mei er (boss's sister) that ambush only gave me two days next week then she ask me go shoe shop work haha! :) Today was kind of busy! And yes I see different type of people lol > Going to work the whole next week except tmr so shall enjoy my day out with fishes! :)

Yes. The title makes sense. I need to change. Tonight is such a shitty night. Don't ask why because everything seems to piss me off. Sis got me scolded by mum and I was really angry so I got her scolded too. Many many things I want to change. Firstly, is to be happy. Oh well, I miss how I used to be! Being positive, happy smiling and all. Looking at the post I blogged recently, I realised it's been pretty bad these days. It's all my fault. I let my thinkings screw me up badly. And now I'm going to do something about it. It's not easy but I'll change my thinkings slowly slowly bit by bit everyday. I'm tired of feeling like this too. It's not what I wanted. I shouldn't let my friends around me worry for me too. And sorry if I affected you mood too > Secondly, the second wish I wrote on that ball. Since change was my title, I shall not say much then. It's still part of my wishlist but then I don't dare to pin hope on it already. Expectati...

helloooooooooo :) its been long since i said hello in my blog i think :O haha but thats not the main point :P supposed to be working at ambush now but my slot was removed ytd! so today is my rest dayyyy yayy :) went to help yanzhen with amaths today and somehow it was fun haha :) some i couldnt do it, but after studying the answer key, it was pretty okay. working was rather easy but idk why i couldnt think of it haha. so while she was doing it, i was studying the menu also haha :) time pass really very fast when im working! like woah the week going to end again haha :) though i worked for almost the entire week, but it isnt very tiring too la haha at least i got things to do :) everyday just be like wake up, do work, bathe and wash clothes then sleep~ so yeahhhhh but kind of excited for fishes outing on monday! :) very long nv meet everyone already haha :) btw claire if youre reading this, have fun at your cruise okay! throw your troubles away and have a great trip on the seaaaa ...

Today I went taka for ambush :) was kinda pissed when I was going work because it suddenly rained when I wanted to leave house and I was running late, so I was really angry with myself. I was slightly late for work today cause I couldn't find it too > There was a few number of small kids which were pretty cute :D the people working there like kids too :) cause we were like playing with the kids from far haha :) I like it when people say 'yes please' when I asked if I could clear their plates :) I think more polite and all :) but some just smiled and say thanks which was petty nice too la hehe :) I learn quite alot today, in recognising the food and all :) I hope I'll be better at the food soon :) going to work at shoe shop on Sunday from 11-4! Cause it was short so I decided to agree then ill have my night rest :)) hope the train arrive soon! :) byeeee :)

Today work at ambush was pretty bad ): just because the customer say idk anything. But it was true also la >

I was wrong again. But this time round, it's really okay already. I will just accept it :) gosh I'm goin to be late for work >

Second day at shoe shop! :) today was a much much happier work haha probably cause I'm more used to the place already :) so I feel more comfortable and time pass really fast :) I shall take back my words! Now I think both ambush and shoe shop is equally enjoyable :) so I don't mind working for both heheh! No more shoe shop for this week :) ambush from thu to sat and Sunday shall be my family and rest day! :D Tosy came today and she doubt me when I told her I was working >

7+2=9 Random LOL. Bad morning ): cause it wasn't good at all. Hmm for once, finally I slept through the night, probably cause I was really really tired till nothing kept me awake. But woke up to this loneliness. Just got the 没人要的感觉 ba > Somebody call 911~ the song currently playing. I really hope I'll get out of this soon. There's work later! Hmm maybe it's a good thing to work too :) bye!

First day at shoe shop working! :) hmm it's not as tough as ambush but I prefer working at ambush ba! Because time pass faster there haha :) but yeah I survived 10.5 hours! :P working at shoe shop is like exercising cause the stocks is at second level so we have to climb up to take. Then some is first level but high up the ceiling so we have to climb too! I need to know the places soon haha > Okay there's work tmr too >

Ambush was pretty okay today hehe! I like to work with people that I know :) but sly say he want change shift cause he dont want work with me ): haha I know they're just kidding :) idk if it's because there's more people working or there's less customer today :O but Adrian is funny haha! Kama is funny too :) I think that's his name if I nv rmb wrongly! But I think there's two side of everyone! So when it's very busy, I shouldn't do anything wrong and make them angry! So yeahhh everything and everyone remains very nice :) I think I laugh alot in ambush today haha, idk why also :) Shoe shop from 11-930 tmr :) hope things will be fine hehe! :) shall wake up and wash my clothes tmr :) first day of work, I should be fine :) anyway according to sis, the people are very nice :) goodnight everyone :)

finally got back my side of the bed last night!! its so much more comfortable to sleep on the side that you are used to it :) sleeping nearer to the wall is like so much hotter >< okay maybe i was thinking too much haha cause there shouldnt be any difference! i'm all alone at home again. grandma coming to sg probably this coming thur i think :) but i'll be working from thu to sat, so cant spend much time with her too. my mind should just stop thinking. STOP.STOP.STOP. maybe i should do selective seeing next time, read those sentences that i want to see, and ignore those that hurts. or maybe i shouldn't ask too much. i hope my stomachache go away soon :/ gooodbyeeeee hope ambush will be fine tonight :)

..... Called the shoe shop just now and maybe I might be trying out one day if it need me :) ambush with sly and Gillian tmr!! :) so glad that my shift are all with sly except for the taka day! And 2 shift with Gillian! :D gonna be a busy week and that's good I guess. 有时候最无心的话是最伤人的。 shall just lie in bed and stone ba. I hope it won't be a sleepless night again.

GOOOD AFTERNOON :) im feeling very hot these few days so i slept on the floor but mum warned me to not sleep on the floor already! >< helped to change the bedsheets just now and ended up sneezing alot cause of the soft toys on the bed :/ dad went in to johor, but then his motorbike spoilt halfway :/ shit i hope he will come back soon ><  just now adrian called and ask me to be on standby for tonight but now he called and say dont need to already haha :) for the past two days, i have been dreaming about working in ambush :/ i think i think of work too much already haha >< but its better than dreaming about other things la :) and i have a very cute friend, whom i think she should be reading this. she thought that letters can be received the next day after she posted hehe! dont you think she's very cuteeee :D excited to meet them soon! :) k shall go watch my show now byeeeeeeee :)

its a saturday :) time seems to be passing very fast yet at the same time very slowwwww. i shall be a good girl and listen to mum cause she's like a volcano, gonna erupt anytime! so the solution was to get a new line for sis, thank goodness! mum wanted to cut off my 3G but luckily didnt, i think i'll die without data haha :/ was having a bad headache for the whole night ytd, i think it was due to insufficient of sleep >< luckily i felt better this morning :) shall watch 真爱找麻烦 today hehe! its kind of boring to stay at home but i cant go out too ): firstly is cause of mum and secondly is going out need to spend alot of money >< hahah i just had durian! neighbour bought 2 for us! :D usually i wont eat the durian but today i just ate some :) k shall continue with my show goooodbyeeeeeeeee!

its getting pretty hard to get to sleep recently. :/ im like sleeping at one plus or two plus even when i have nothing to do cause my phone was charging. this is bad like really baddd. every morning i will tell myself that i'll sleep earlier that night but it just didnt happen >< but i felt the impact of not having enough sleep today :/ i felt like fainting haha but luckily i didnt! shall take a gooood rest! went shopping with shihui today! :D i saw this black dress that was quite nice but i think mum will scold so, as usual i didnt get it luh. i told mum about it just now when she called back, hoping that she will tell me to get it hehe! :P going KL on 25 jan! i hope i can get many many nice and new clothes thereeee :D and i got myself two new earrings today! :D I always got the urge to spend money when I'm not feeling good >

Second day at ambush and it was a night shift :) it was busier than lunch but I prefer night shift I guess :) because I will keep myself very very busy till I got no time to think about anything else :) the people there today are pretty nice! :) and food is damn good too :P and I was kind of lucky cause I worked with Peijun today :D at least I didn't eat alone and I didn't go home alone :) Today was a busy day! Went to watch ah boy to men with sis and cousins and yes, qian is super troublesome ._. How can someone spoil their slipper in the midst of a movie ._. Oh well, went kovan to buy shoe and wanted to go bowling but ended up we went to nex arcade instead :) I had fun there :) and I saw Shihui!! :) very happy to see her :) she gives me a very comforting feeling and I love her :) and I saw Gillian today cause she worked lunch shift! :) I feel very happy to see Gillian too!! All these people are those I see everyday in the past! And I really miss them alot, each and everyone...

I didn't realise it's 1:09 alr :/ been sleeping quite late recently and it's pretty bad because my forehead starts to show evidence of me sleeping late :/ I always say I want to sleep early but ended up I didn't. I wouldn't say today was a extremely bad day nor will I say it's a good one. Consist of both ba :) Bad was because I couldn't control myself but good was cause I finally 想通了 at night which is pretty good and I feel much better? Thanks for the advice! Oh ambush tmr! Hope it will be okay :) I'll be faster tmr :) I'll do my best :) ah boy to men with sis tmr shall just enjoy myself hehe! :) okay it's late gonna sleep :) and there's alot of lightning and thunder tonight. I kept the clothes for mum in case she wake up panicking in the middle of the night haha >

Waiting for mum now to come out from the toilet and it's kind of bored to wait alone so I shall blog :) saw Jiawei here! :) and i took a stronger flu med today already cause I don't seems to recover but the ironic thing is I'm eating macs. 以毒攻毒 > There's ambush tmr again yay :) I kind of like going there to work :) i hope nothing will go wrong hehe :) I'm really trying very hard to do something that I hate to. Oh well this sucks.

First day of ambush was pretty okay :) just that my leg hurts abit haha :) on the way home now :) I think the people there are pretty nice :) I like working haha :) time pass very quickly. And the food is very nice too haha :) Shall go home rest and continue my book hahah :) 梦和现实的差距 有的时候让你感到灰心 世界无情 只要记得我在这里陪你~

About 2 more hours to work! :) hahaha oh well I'll just do my best hehe :) idk what to do now eh! I think I woke up too early. Maybe I should just go bathe and stone hehe. Hope everything goes well :) but things will eventually be okay de la. if it's not okay, it's not the end :) bye!

Two more new books! :) shall take my time to read hehe! Finally bought my black shoes today :) ambush tmr! Actually I'm kind of scared luh :/ hahah but nvm I'll just give my best heheh! :) Actually it's kind of sad that things don't go your way. Isn't it?

Another storybook that I finished :) the author is a pretty good one and I read some of her books before :) going to borrow more tmr to kill my time :) In the past, what I always worry is which subject or which homework havent finish, but now I'm like worrying bout what to do the next day. I'm tired of saying I'm bored already. But there's really like nothing much to do :/ anyway I'm starting to write journal again, I think it's good to have a habit of writing :) Oh well it's late already. Probably I should sleep soon :) goodnight!

Went Johor today with aunt hehe! I'm beginning to like going Johor maybe because going Johor is better than rotting at home ): eat and eat then buy groceries hehe and come back :) OHSHIT and I haven't got my black shoe. It's so hard to buy a shoe ): either not suitable or no my size. :/ anyway watching movie with sis on thu before work yay! :) hehe!

I don't know what's with my dreams recently :/ I keep 被梦吓醒 and this is kind of horrible. My heart is still beating super fast :/ I think I'm dying from boredom > Goodbye :) and smile :)

The title was the book that I had been reading. Finished this book today and it was a pretty good book! I realised I like to read Chinese book haha :) Today was horrible though. All I did, except for reading the book, was just sleeping :/ took the flu med and I guess it was the medicine that make me sleep > And I sort of miss red camp :/ hahah well, don't be sad that its over, be happy that it happened. I think poly life really suit me better :O hmm. Idk > Goodbye and be happy smile :)

Shall edit this post haha :P _________________________ HELLO! :D haha currently on the bus home from ngee ann :) didn't post for the past three days because was at the red camp! :D it was a really fun and amazing camp! Despite being tired, I really don't mind going for a fourth day if they have haha :) Day 1! took the shuttle bus there and the SL were welcoming us to the camp as we head to the convention centre. they were cheering and could feel the highness hahaa :) went to the IT,design, engineering and business school :) the business school MC were twins and the way they speak very funny :) they had activities in each different school, like maybe we had to make a wind turbine to see who had the highest voltage, design a toy care, promote something :) Day 2 was less tiring compared to day 1! We went to media and humans school :) I think media was pretty cool cause we did the 配音 for kungfu panda, and there was this software that can make your head look like another anima...

Got into ambush today hehe! Luckily sly was there cause I was really kind of scared :/ anyway the manager so nice and friendly haha :D great day today anyway :) heheh. But idk what made me so tired >

First day of freedom! I think I'm going to be tired of it soon already > Went bowling today hehe I think I was just lucky la :P heheh! Anyway aunt and all are planning to go Macau next march holiday! But plans can be change also haha :) I need to start earning money soon!! Have to pay myself if I want to go Macau with them! I still haven't watch any shows today hehe shall start watching them tomorrow :) hehe goodnight :)

ITS OVERRRRR :D all that we have work for, for this year, finally ended. suddenly feel so empty, like there's nothing to work for, nothing to do. haha :/ going to look for a job, to at least find something meaningful to do and experience something new before going to a new environment next year :) today, is really the last day of school already. so much so much things will be the last time i'm doing it but i'll always remember it. 如果可以再选择，我还会要再读中学。but we need to grow up, we need to experience new things, we need to see more of the world, we cannot always stay under the protection of our parents. its time to move on to the next phrase already! "an end is the beginning of something new" i've seen this in many blogs and places, and yeah i guess i agree too. don't be sad that it's over, be glad that it once happened :) 美好的事情，一次就够了。这样我们才会更珍惜，永远记住。:) going to cherish whatever i have now and be contented with it! :) ohhhh and i finish packing my things...

Just woke up from my nap! :D I woke up feeling very happy because I had alot of nice dreams :) but also I woke up feeling very drained, because I didn't slept well last night > Chemistry today was.. Okay I guess! Feel really thankful that I did the practises :) because all those that came out was those that I did wrongly at first >

事实在眼前，而我们有两个选择。一，选择接受。 二，假装不知道。逃避也不是办法，也改变不了什么东西。

This feeling is weird. Like my head feel kind of dizzy and all. I hope that I'll be okay soon >

Yay another fun day at Naomi's house :) it's nice for the three of us to come tgt again :) ever since trng stop, we didn't really talk much alr > Prata at her house downstairs then studied and talk quite abit heheh! Ryo is cute as ever hehe! And I slept on the bed >

It's Tuesday already. One week seems to pass quite fast but slow at the same time. I'm starting to contradict myself again. Hahaha parents at home today going over to nao's house later :) Physics as usual seems boring. Mum seems to be pms-ing real badly and sis have been scolded quite alot by her these few days. Oh well, I must be good so I won't get scolded by her~ I haven't watch any show today but aiya now if she see me watching, she will claim that I've watched the whole day, so what's the point? And da yi say she can fetch me from genting if I want to go back~ but I have to go back for a month eh > I hope.... They say you shouldn't say your wish out if not they won't come true. :) jiayouuuu!

It was a great day with Sonia today hehe! :) super long nv go out with her alr :) went shopping and all and hehehe I think we very efficient :P went lunch with Shihui before meeting Sonia :)) Hmm sorry. Hope everything will be alright for you soon! Oh I need to start doing tys!! Thu is coming soon >

人与人之间难免会有磨擦。 因为意见不合，就会有些不愉快。若那个人坚持要把另一个人接受并且照自己的想法去做，那可能会更严重。 Hmm okay something I learn over dinner today. Hmmm.. Went tampines today and suddenly thought of many many things like 士林and etc. hmmm..

i just realised that i cant really do physics :/ like not motivated at all to do it unlike chemistry. anyway its really bored at home! i finish all the housework hehe i think mum will be glad that she wont have to do it haha :) and i finish packing my clothes cupboard hehe! look so much neater and tidier :) and 真爱找麻烦 is really a very nice show! gillian has been saying that its a nice show :) ..... im really very very very bored. oh crap nvm, find a job after o ba :) shall go download songs before going out with parents i think! seeee yaaaa :D smile :D

Aunt and family are here for dinner today :) actually I like how they come here every sat and how we go there every sun. :) but sometimes mum think it's a trouble :/ hmmm.. I shall enjoy all these while we still have it :) Feel so tired today :/ like finally crashed after days of sleepless night :/ haha anyway I'm a helpful girl today :) I did quite alot of housework :) Indeed, an eye for an eye make the world blind. I don't want to be blind.

I just realise that my post ytd wasn't published! > A post before I sleep hehe! Everyone seems to be working now :) I feel so excited for them :) i also want to work haha :) anyway all the best to everyone that's woking tmr!! :) may the first day of work be fine for everyone :) 心情不好的人，希望你们快快变快乐！ 生病的人，快快好起来 大家要开心:)

I need to sleep before 1130. Hmm boring day today :/ all I did was to watch show, housework, 2 MCQ, and nothing else >

hmmm hcl today was.. difficult :/ paper one was okay but paper two was like idk how to do alot and i only give one or two sentences answer because i had no time but i didnt want to have any blanks in the paper. but well, chinese is over so yeah i shall not think about it! :) O seems to be coming to an end, but yet its not ending haha. actually charm was right, this is like the best time, like o hasnt over then all you need is just to practise and no more humans :) must continue doing sciences and try to aim for full marks for paper one :) cant wait to work after o :D im really curious how it is like to work haha. it was quite relaxing at charm house today! i really like her house environment hahah but charm, this is not a confession so dont be scare :P JIAYOUU BE HAPPYY :D

OH YES LAST HUMAN PAPER! hmm i didnt think alot for today's paper, haha! somehow i got quite some questions that im unsure of but whatever, its over so i should not think about it and go and study my chinese! lalalala how do you study chi? :/ hmm i shall read some essays and practise ba hehe! :D exam is coming to an end soon! :D today that person called hmm kind of think that the chances of her giving me the job is quite low ba! but then yeah shall look for a job soooon! :D JIAYOU HUIWENNNNNNN!

Sorry my friends if i looked as if i was in a bad mood today > Sometimes it is hard to stop thinking. But you have to. JIAYOU HUIWEN

This is pretty bad. But luckily this didnt come during the hell week, if not I might just screw the papers which is worse. Slept quite alot in the evening so I guess I'm staying up to make up ba :/ human geog is really wanting my life :/ I just finish development and tourism. I thought development was hard but I realise industry is the real hard one :/ lalala. Anything la all these will be over soon. This is soooooo boring like really > Oh today I made watermelon juice heheh was just trying out the blender and there happen to be watermelon in the fridge so it became my experiment hahah. Mum was nice to me today :) I think actually everyone is nice. But am I taking them for granted? I ought to do something about my temper. It's pretty bad that's gonna ruin me some day.

Super unproductive day but hmmm it was a day that was rather complicated. I would say I had fun but also guilty. I guess I won't suggest that anymore too > Wanted to cycle but it kept raining so yeah ): had to push the plan. We couldn't walk too cause it was raining ): but Global Chinese Music Award was nice!!! :D like super high after watching it! :D singing together with the singer at home lol > Hmm Cindy said that 23,24,25 will have darkness but it won't end. Hmmmm.. Will the world really experience all the these things? Really not sure eh. Nvm, wait till it happen then i'll know lol > Really hope everything is fine for everyone. Everything will be okay in the end, if it isn't, it's not the end. So Jiayou everyone :) be happy!!

Hmm I feel quite of guilty for shouting at mum just now :/ sorry > Had mcspicy for lunch!! :) I think I last ate it a year ago because of pimples! > Human geog is so dryyyyyy. > Hmmmmm. Was wondering 人死后回去哪里？sometimes I imagine that probably we will be in heaven looking down at your families or friends, but sometimes I just feel that it doesn't exist? Like probably when you stop breathing, you will not feel anything anymore. Hmmm. Will the world really come to an end? :O I guess not. Actually I won't mind if world end. Crazy me with nonsensical thinking! Hope tmr will be productive :) jiayouuuu everyone :) endureeee and it will be over soon :)

today feel so good hehe! finally finally a break, a long break but yeah, im not going to rest for too long because i need to study human geog!! i will use this chance to make up for the mistakes i lost in paper 1! wanted to come home and sleep but ended up slacking but idk what i did hehe. shall have a good long night sleep tonight before starting to mug again :) today is the first time i came out of the hall feeling so happy hehe! its been pretty long since i felt that happy but yeah whats over is over and im not going to think about it again! im not going to compare answer after the paper and also im just going in to the hall with the mentality that i will just do my best without caring my results. i think i worried too much about the marks that i panic and worry too much during the paper itself and cause myself to not do as well. O is coming to an end soon! hell week is over omg i survived like yes i did it :D just 5 more papers to go and i guess this will really be the end of x...

hmmmmmmm. i really really did my best to study ss alr :/ really really hope that the themes that i studied for will come out >< and hopefully i wont forget what i studied. tired.

Was bathing and thinking about plans after o :) hmm I came up with a conclusion that no matter what happen, there will always be another plan so yeah :) Jiayou huiwen!!! Study hard k! Don't worry too much >

English is overrrrrrrr!!! Hmm actually honestly I think I screw it up but yeah what's over is over so I shall not think about it and focus on the rest of my paper!! :) Maths tmr! I hope I don't blank out tmr!!! I will and must not panic like how I did for English paper tmr > Sometimes, we forget the fact that not all things are 理所当然 and take things for granted.

tomorrow is the day. somehow i really really hope that things will go well for me. okay not convincing enough. I WILL MAKE THINGS GO WELL FOR ME. JIAYOU HUIWEN!!!! breatheee and dont panic (: you will do better than what you expect (: jiayou everyone (: lets fight!!

Hello to everyone that reads my blog! Idk who you are, but I do know of some > It's 2 more days to o :) well I hope that you all don't overstress yourself okay!! Certain stress is okay, but too much will lead to negative impact > Lastly, all the best! :D Smile, huiwen :)

HELLO CHARM!

3 more days to o!!! HAHA. Idk if I'm excited for it, or I'm panicking > HAHAA baobao idk if you're reading this haha but just want to say hello! :) Jiayou for revision and don't stalk me :P heheh. Hmm was telling them that mum seems to have alot confidence in me :O hmm idk but she isn't asking me to study > Anyway I will miss my friends so much > Jiayou everyone that's reading my blog! :) don't give up okay :) we have come this far, don't let just let everything go to waste :) add oil add oil!!! :D

Graduation tomorrow :/ I haven't been feeling good since afternoon > I hope I could still meet up with classmates and cliques! I don't want our friendship to end as school end too. Everything will be the last tmr > 天下没有不散之筵席. Yeah it's time to say bye and hi to another phrase of my life. I'll miss and won't forget everyone :) we have to grow up. We have to go new environment. I have to accept this fact. Jiayou huiwen!! Don't tear so much tmr please >

I'm supposed to be sleeping now but I can't get to sleep and I'm boreddddd. ): Come time checkkkk~ it's less than 40 days :) jiayouuuuuu feeling quite worried but yeah I should be can make it! Cannot be too overstress~ jiayouuuu :) Make good use if the time available now :) 努力是有回报的! Jiayou!:) 大家不要放弃!

Last day of holiday and I haven't finish my homework > Well spent holiday this round :D wow chase ytd was super fun too! :D it was totally not what I expected hahah! :) results tmr.. Mum was asking me bout that just now. Hmm I should be can pass all subjects ba :O jiayouuuuu! Whatever the results is tmr, I'll try not to tear. Jiayou!

Last lap already! Time really pass very fast and I hope that I can enough time to study finish for the exams! 40 plus more days~ I must believe that I can do it :) I still rmb at the start of this term, I was really really scare and worried that I wont be able to pass o and will do badly, hmm 十个礼拜后的今天 或许我能说我对自己比较有信心了 :) but still I have to catch up quite abit~ so Jiayou huiwen :) and all the best to everyone!! Don't give up okay :) its never the end! It's never too late to start either :) and thanks everyone who has been constantly encouraging me and also for believing that I can. :) Sept holidays coming to an end >

PRELIM WILL BE OVER NEXT WEEK YAYYYYYYYYY! :D jiayou everybodyyyy (:

Hmmm oral tmr! I hope I won't fail like prelim ba :O Jiayou! Hmm sorry.

PRELIMMM seems like its going to be over soon HAHA. actually nope, there's still two more weeks but i guess it would be a more relaxed week compared to the one thats going to pass. History and ss are over yay! :D at least all the memorising work are mostly done maybe except for geog (: hmmm i hope i will do well for prelim this time because if i do well, it would really serve as a good motivation, how if i dont, i know i'll tear, but i'll learn my mistake and do better during Os. i think i really dont have a lot more time left ): jiayou huiwen dont give up!! hope everyone is okayyy. BE HAPPY :D whats over is over. learn to look forward to the future :D anyway cant wait to grow old HAHA. but at the same time, i dont want to leave my friends so soon. and im really really glad for all my friends that has been here for me all the time! i hope by being high, i can brighten up their day! (: intensive studying suggested by sis tmr :O i hope i'll really study haha! JIAYOU...

Prelims coming next week~ hmm if I were to say I'm not worried then I'm lying. 害怕又再次的得到否定. Hmm well, I guess the most important thing is o and that I show improvement during prelim. I hope I'll be able to pass all my subject this time~ Jiayou huiwen!! Jiayou everyone and be happy :)

I guess I'm more motivated now to study ^^ and that's greattttt! :) I hope I'll still be able to improve :) Jiayou huiwennnnn!!! :) 努力真的会有回报的! :D Everyone be happpppppy pleaseeeee! :) Jiayou 大家! :)

好像又再次地被打败。 考试过了就过了 不要再想了 但是一想到拿回的成绩 就还是不得不投降。 虽然告诉过自己 成绩不重要 重要的是我努力过， 但是还是不能控制自己。 我真的会考好吗？不是要怀疑自己 但是我的成绩不得不让我对自己很没信心。 有时，不是因为不想做或说些什么，只是因担心 所以才不说。 对不起。 我也没你们说的那么好。

不要给自己压力。 尽力就好。 不管怎样，都改不了事实。 加油慧雯。不要放弃。 每个人都没放弃你，所以我不能自暴自弃。 休息就休息。 读书就读书。 玩就玩。 加油哦！

谢谢大家! 我没事! 我会加油的！

Submitted my DPA today already :) hmm I actually thought it was 600 words but turn out to be 600 characters > Night study started! :) hmm kind of productive :) school kind of a conducive place to study actually! :) prelims coming soon >

School gonna start tmr again. Time pass super fast, and time is running out too! Prelims are coming soon, o is nearing too. I haven't done much revision this holiday compared to what I've planned :/ oh well tmr onwards, im gonna use my phone lesser and start to spend more time with my books. I need to start improving. Oh and DPA starting in less than two weeks time! need to start preparing everything alr. Since I've set on it, I'll try my very best. Jiayouuu huiwen and Jiayou everyone! We can do it :)

Heh camp was awesome and fun! :D but super tiring after camp but it was quite a good break for me before mugging :) School is super dark at night and thanks to a lot of people that was there for me! Nightwalk was fun hehe we tried to scare them by pretending to be ghost hehe but me myself was scare too so I'm like scaring myself too! AMAZING race was ofc AMAZING :) that's the name of the race hehe ^^ ran around the red line and purple line :) we first set off from school then to yishun, bishan,serangoon, harbourfront, punggol, Chinatown, orchard and lastly back to school! :) Hmm talked to ms Wong during potluck and she told me not to worry too much. But cant help but to worry :/ hmmm Jiayou ba huiwen!! :) goooodbye :)

我开始害怕了，开始担心了。是否我真的给自己太多的压力呢。我担心我快撑不下去了 担心我自己会在途中放弃。我累了。 一天一天地过去。 想想我到底做了些什么，说实话 好像什么都没做到。 那我这几天到底在忙（盲） 些什么。 不能放弃 坚持到底。加油！我行的

Steamboat with the girls was awesome today :) it has been a long time since we came tgt as a team, though there wasn't a full team today cause nao got chi o tmr ): super fullllll but then it was quite worth it :) card games and truth or dare was awesome :) hehe ^^ everyone laughed like mad today and saw the planning for camp alr :) Hahahaha anyway parents gonna be back tmr. Hmm at least dad is back :) I need to tell them the cockroach incident! Oh Physics paper tmrrrr. Oh welll. Idk lah don't think so much ba. Try my best. And 02 outing. Hmmm. Nvm no comments. Jiayou baaaa :) 真相会随着时间慢慢地出现.

Hmmm today was such a 'rainy' day. It pour in the morning and in the afternoon. I'm still thinking if I should drop to combined. I guess probably not ba. But what if I still continue to fail? My o will be super screwed and I'll regret not listening to sis. Haiy. Idk laaa. Ahh. See how on Monday ba. Hmm principal session. Wow. First time in my 10th year of education. It's not a good thing anyway. How it will be okay ba. Haiy. I must really study smart this time round. I can do it de. Hmm parents went KL alr and I'm all alone at home. Sometimes this alone is just too scary which I dislike. I'm scare. Jiayou ba.

Chi intensive for the past maybe two weeks :O actually not two weeks laaaa but it's more than a week so let's just round up :) hmmm lesson was pretty good honestly :) the teachers really spend a lot of effort teaching us :) thanks so much! :D And videos was shown. Hmm the first video was an hour and it made the girls cried > Chi o on Monday! Goodluck for those taking paper :) and probably I feel less guilty now! Hmmm idk and I'm not sure what thing is gonna strike us next >

Got back paper today and it was really disappointing. I did quite badly I guess :/ I'm gonna be the last few again > Emaths was okay ba. :) at least one subject that can pull me up!! And SS was quite okay ba, normally I'll be disappointed with the results but this time I was so glad that I pass!!! Lesson learnt is that to study two themes and not having too much confidence that a certain topic will come out. Tmr Amaths and geog. Hmmmm. Either one fail I guess me may not take it. Jiayou baaaa. Theres still time to work hard.

Hmmm. Got back Chinese paper today and intensive chi today. Lesson was super cold!! Luckily I brought my jacket along :) hmm mum ask me how did I do for chi. I just said if you see just the marks alone, ofc it's bad but if you compare with all the hmt students then I'm average. Well.. Mum didn't scold me after that. Was it cause she know I work hard? Or what..? Honestly sky kinda turn grey at that time when ms Wong say I'll be very disappointed with my maths. Haiy. Maths. The only subject that I look forward to. Don't tell me u gonna kill my only hope. Aviation. I seemed to be even further away from it now. Neither science or maths can make it. So am I still able to get into that course? I've been dropping. Ain't I? What's the problem with me? I still can't seems to find that problem that lies in me. Work harder they always say. Well I did work hard this time. But sometimes it's not just work hard can solve everything right? I don't have mu...

TODAY WAS FUN :D be it with 02 peeps or with Dexus people!! :D probably the best day since exams end! :) baking was fun toooooo!!! :))))) hahahahahahah. Results tmr. Hmmmm.

hmmmm end of MYE! :D but like kind of don't have the feeling that it ended :/ idk why is it so. i was so looking forward to end of MYE but well life now.. is so aimless :/ i still like the life when there's exam, at least there was an aim, there's always something i have to do everyday. hmm i must be crazy. captain ball today with the girls was awesome! :) i like how our class girls can just get together and have fun together though we normally don't spend much time together! everyone's nice anyway :) played for two hours and went to rest at the canteen then lunch and went charm's house! :D OMG HER HOUSE IS DAMN COOOOL! got the very very comfortable feeling~! :D and i like! :) wanted to went off at 3 to get something but well~ didnt :/ hmm shall get it on monday then! :D played monopoly deal and then chatted at her balcony :) it was so relaxing! :) a break from weeks of studying but i guess i wont stop studying luh. shall pack my cupboard and all my stuff tomor...

LAST PAPER TMR YAY OMG SUDDENLY FEEL SO FREEEEE :) everyday is so stresssssss. Come home eat sleep study sleep wake up take test go home eat sleep study. So boredddd. And 3 weeks just pass like that!! Almost really wanted to give up alr > Hmmm suddenly exam going to end then I don't feel like sleeping alr! :O hahahahaha. Haiyyyy but sleep feel so good during exam period Hahahaha :) kind of looking forward to result but im not sure if I can take some blows. Hmmm. Jiayouuuuu ba.

Argh so pissed with myself for not studying much :/ ))): what's wrong with me now. I must work hard. I must not forget the amount of tears I shed because of my sucky results. So I have to do well if not history gonna repeat itself again. Just jolly well get back to study. Still have the guilt feeling damn. Should I tell anyone about it. Hmm.

Insecure. So much what ifs.

I guess life's getting better? :) Ohwellll I totally screwed my ss paper :/ why the hell did I gamble by just studying one theme and I spent like so much time on it yet it didn't come out?! Crapp. Totally freestyle all the way today :/ Haiy. SS 的成绩就靠天了吧. Maths was hmmmm not as hard as i expected but me got a bad feeling that Amaths paper one will be hard :/ oh well nvmmmm just do my best alright. Jiayou huiwen don't give up on urself and work hard! One's success dont just drop from the sky. It's the small little effort they put in everyday.

Oh damn it's just 625 in the morning and it's a saturday morning ._. I should be sleeeeping but can't sleep :/ argh too much things on my mind again. Hmm will I be able to tell him again :/ oh well nvm then. Anyway im so glad that I still have a senior :') I really won't know what to do. Oh and huiwen STOP SLACKING IF YOU DON'T WANT TO DO BADLY FOR MYE ._. Jiayou!

Tomorrow is the first paper > 我是乎好像越来越没信心了，我现在真的真的没法再承受什么打击了。真的需要把原来的我找回来，以前那快乐，不放弃的我。 总觉得老天在耍我。

我做的决定是对的吗？ 我会后悔吗？ 我是否已确定了吗？无论发生什么事，后果就由我承担吧。累了也泪了，倦了一切的一切。或许也该这样吧。 再给我一些时间，可能在那时候我就会告诉你们我心里所有的想法。

Moody monday. It sound nice huh. :P siaoooo. I think I really going crazy already :/ don't know whether if it's just I'm tired or im really going crazy :/ everything around me seems just as moody as me :/ the sky ): why must it darken :/ Haiy. 难道老天也和我一样吗？ maths test results. Hmm kind of depressing yet at the other hand not really. Oh well what am I talking about seriously. I hope it isn't the books that make me become like that :/ urgh Thursday Thursday thursday. Siannnnn.

4 MORE DAYS OHNO. I think I wasted quite a lot of time > From tmr onward i will mug real hard jiayouuuu huiwen!!

MIDYEAR MIDYEAR MIDYEAR. 先苦后甜. JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU.

为什么我再怎么努力还是会比别人差，为什么最好的科目都不比别人好，为什么我会那么差，那么没用。 我尝试了，但还是不行，一直告诉自己不要放弃，但都是嘴里说的，一次次的失败给我的打击有时真的的是受不了，我想我并不像我想象的那么坚强。每个人都有一个承受不了的极限，我想我的极限到了。受不了了，好想好想就此放弃,但是我不能。为什么成绩变成那么差，就连最好的也成为最差的，为什么每个测验不是不及格就是干好及格。我是不是还是不够努力呢？

Got back Physics paper today! Hmm I still failed :/ but at least this time round got improvement which is a good thing ba :O to be honest, I'm not disappointed, but also not very happy la. I hope for a pass ): if it wasn't for my carelessness, I would have pass!!! ): haiyyyy. Nvm at least I got the concept alr ba. Just don't be so careless during mye ba! Huiwen Jiayou!!! :D don't give upppp.

Yesterday's physics test was not difficult I think :O but I don't know if I can pass anot :/ but I guess I won't be failing too badly ah :/ took the same bus home with a group of people ytd! And 很热闹! Hahah :) its been long since I went home with so many people! Everyone used to have CCAs or they are busy with their commitments. Heh but I guess everyone have to stop and start revising for mye! Physics 这个石头可以放下了，wait till results come back then I shall see what I'm not sure about so I can recise and practise that chap. :) today shall be a happppy day cause I'm going to eat frolick with Shihui today! :) goooodbye!

Physics test tomorrow. I MUST PASS THE TEST TOMORROW. I know I put in my best effort, so whatever the result is, I know i done my best. So whatever the result is, I won't cry. Be it tears of joy or tears of disappointment. I must believe that I can do it!

Study session was quite okay today! :) I did something productive yay! :) but idk why I still like dont get the concept :/ practise practise practise ba. Trng tmr! Next week will be so drain. Physics, geog, chem spa, Amaths, chi and english test! Woah busy :/ and sis will be back next week! :D and that means I have only 2 weeks left to study ): ohnooooo. So glad that aunt is alright! :) it's just a blood cot and it's nothing serious :) but she's really brave! Something that I admire a lot! Gonna study goodbyeeee :)

Good things always come to an end. Everything has an ending. Its just a matter of when I guess. It depends on how a person fight for it. Random thoughts lol. I hope no one reads my blog but chance are high that no one reads it righttt since it was dead for quite some time. Childhood. The time I missed the most ): and it's gone. All left are just memories. How I miss being a child. Everything is just nicely done for u, everyone will be super nice to you and it wasn't so stress. Got back my prelim results yesterday and it sucks seriously. I never expect it to be this ): I hate how my results are now. I hate how everything is now. I hate how screwed up I am now. So demoralised yesterday. So much for having the motivation to study but gone after taking back results. Can't give up just like that! Jiayou baaaaa and I hope 你们会没事！

Exactly one more month to midyear! Should I be glad that there's still a month time or should I be worried that there's only one month time left? Think in the positive way ba. One month. I should make good use of it! I hope there will be improvement in mye results ba! Sis went back to Malaysia already! I miss her ): feel so weird to sleep alone! Haiy. Gonna call her everyday if I can hahaha :) Maybe some goal setting: - not to exceed my SMS! -pass physics and chem by mye -aim to sleep before 11 everyday -not to get addicted to any drama before mye end -STOP GETTING DISTRACTED BY MY PHONE! Jiayou baaaaaaa :) 你说呢 明知你不在 还是会问

Today ms wong said she's going to call those people who failed 3 or more subjects. And guess what I'm one of them too. Ever since she said that I've been thinking about it over and over again. I can't stop thinking. What will mum's reaction be like? I can't stop thinking about how disappointed she will feel. I hate that disappointed feeling. What will she say to me then? Idk. I remember this happened once last year, when I brought back all my results and it was really badly done. I remember how much tears I dropped then. I told myself I will work hard and pass all my subjects so mum won't be disappointed with me ever again but it happened again. Idk how am I going to face mum. I know she will ask me if I need tuition anot and ask me what really happen but idk how to explain even me myself idk what can I do to help myself. Have I not work hard enough? Idk. Maybe I really didn't. Or maybe I prioritise it wrongly. I shouldn't spend so much time on mat...

IT'S SUNDAY AGAIN! Well I don't know if this is good or bad. Bad cause school reopening tomorrow! :/ and I thought I finished all my homework alr and turns out that i have not finish any -.- maybe good is cause I can see everyone again! Hate staying home alone that sucks.

Went doctor again today cause having very serious stomachache, vomit and diarrhoea. Doctor say it was food poisoning but idk what I ate that led to the poisoning :/ what a bad start of march. First 3 days only then went doctor 2 times :/ felt quite bad to mum cause she spend like $90 for my doctor bill and spend time waiting with me for the doctor :/ Thank god its weekend then I don't have to take mc. Spend my time mostly on bed which is quite sian also! Hope I will be fine by tmr! Xinthesis today! All the best to the performers today though its kind of late alr. So I guess even if I bought the tix, I still won't be able to go. Hope everyone have fun there! ^^ Last week of school next week! :) is it bad or good? Idk. Maybe good cause get to have a march break or maybe it will be filled with remedial lessons or cca for everyone. I think mum and sis and dad planning to go back Malaysia so I will be aloneeeee but it's fine la. I don't want to be reason why they never g...